Say Good bye to 2009...welcome 2010...

Time for counting!!! It is nearly to reach 2010...another few hours to go...slowly left 2009...waving for 2010...
Wish to all my dear friends..happy new year....may everything will be better than last years...may every wish...every dream...will be achieved in 2010..
Together..work out for the best!!!InsyaAllah...semoga rezeki di tahun 2010 lebih baik dari hari-hari yang sebelum ini....SELAAMT TAHUN BARU 2010..UNTUK SEMUA RAKYAT MALAYSIA..!!!

Balgis's day out part 2

Balqis@Nyonya Penang Restaurant...


Waaaaaaaahhh....banyaknye menu...apa kite nak makan ni...nyum..nyum...Diorang ni nak suruh kite pilih ke....macam le kita pandai bace eik.....

Umi saye!!!

Ayah n Umi saye...

Jap la....belum pilih lagi menu ni...

Macam best je....

Hai...

Last2..ayah jugak yang plih menu...ngeeeeeeee

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

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Salam...entry kali..ni xtau nak letak tajuk apa.....so itulah jadinya bila xtau nak letakkan tajuk apa...
X berapa hari lagi....kembali menatap wajah2 pelajar kesayangan....huhuhuhuh...hari ni meeting...xsudah2 dengan KPI...hadush!!! Nak kena buat KPI utk subject masing2 plak...erm....alhamdulillah hasil kerja saya dijadikan contoh lagi hari ni...hihhihhi....
So esok n lusa dah xde meeting...1-3 plak....marking paper xsudah2 lagi..asyik malas....sempat....yakin boleh...hehehehe...anak2 buah yg sarawak dah balik...malam tadi sampai...riuh-rendah si Faiz..tu...xhabis2 angannya...Faiz dah besar...hehehehe...xapalah Iz...nnt dah nak sekolah....eok je dia tadi..'ayah...faiz nak gi umah nenek..'
macam umah nenek dia leh gi jalan kaki...hihihihihi..
Rasanya nak lakukan perubahan yang banyak utk 2010...nak kerja lebih gigih lagi.....n yg penting nak cari ruang n peluang utk sambung belajar...dah lama asyik delay je......2010 ni harap2 menjadi lah......lama2 tangguh nanti..susah...mudah-mudahan semua laluan ok je nanti....amin!

Serabut!!!

Isj...serabut btul.....dgn cikgu sorang tu...semua kije...mesti nak kait ngan kita...sampaikan nak pilih pattern langsir bilik dia.....pun kita gak.....xsudah2....dah la kije dia hari kita siapkan..dia elok2 je balik kg.....isk!!!
Ni dah sampai tahap serabut ni....minta maaf le..pasni malas dah nak lebih2 kan tgn ni...hukur sana sini...nnt apa2 hal orang buat keja half way..then kita gak last2 kena sambung.....
Erm...skarang..dah malas nak layan..nak settle kerja sendiri ni je..hari ni dia ajak kita pegi umah tukang jahit langsir tu....erm..kita senyap n wat kije kita je...kalo dia faham..faham lah....kita dah mula SERABUT ni....jgn sampai over limit dah le....kat mana2 pon rasa serabut aje...haishy!!!
Rilek2....tarik nafas.....then baru buat kije......huhuhuhh

Awaken!!!

Wah....baru kembali ke dunia yang nyata!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today...

Early bird = attended meeting....bukan meeting tapi ala2 taklimat ang membosankan....
Afternoon = Rushed to Peladang Setiu Agro Resort....ambil cek...then ke CIMB...cek palang..so have to wait for another 2 days lah....then bayar instalment kuda hitamku....then balik rumah....
Mengantuk bangat...semalam tido lewat giler!!!!! Time taklimat sempat marking 2-3 scripts...heheheh..
So petang ni apa citer??????????
Xde plan..nk tidow.....je kot!!!!Yeahaaaaaaaaaaa!

Already gone..

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Balqis's day out part 1

Dua dunia.....

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thinking.....

Nak tu!!!!!!!!!!!

Balqis nak snap p ic ayah la....

Ayah ..nak makan apa ni...

pretty girl...

Jom gi jalan2....

End of 2009..

2009....approaching to the end...to leave everything..Suka duka silih berganti..sepanjang 2009...
Pelbagai kisah pahit manis akan kutinggalkan...menuju ke dunia baru...melangkah tapak demi tapak...mengatur langkah demi langkah ke arah yang terbaik...
Buat semua teman...terima kasih atas segalanya....sumbangan tenaga....idea dan segala...terima kasih juga atas segala kenangan indah..pahit manis...semoga semua itu adalah guru yang terbaik untuk langkah seterusnya...

Life is sometime suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alhamdulillah...

My Dad is home!!!!!!!
Wah rindunya kat my dad....after a month time he left me to Mecca...alhamdulillah he is very2 fine......

Approaching the end..

Another 7-8 days to leave 2009....the ending of all the stories...series of life will be coming up next...
It is not the story or anything else to be counted on...it is about our next wish...next mission...which is may turn ant dark spot to become white...to polish up any faded items become shiny...
The Hijrah year is already tom increase its number..turn to be.1430...it is already in new year mood...but not all of us noticed about this changes..may be..the busy life made us almost forget it..sometime we noticed it..we noted about the change..but delayed to take action...n in the end...pending for further action...n buried there...without any refreshing...
Just hoping that the next..2010...will be more meaningful..full of delightful...excitement...n better than before..the next days...bloom out colorfully...story all the sweet scents will...mesmerize the next days...the next breath lead to the best way....of life....InsyaAllah...
May the ending..is part of the happy beginning for 2010...

I Hate when...

People keep on blaming me....
People who like to bother about me...
People who like to show off their 'concern' to me...
People who never understand me..
People who never know the true story...n then blaming my fault...
Realy HATE Those people who r very bzbody..to mingle with other people life...
Please...understand the others' feeling....please respect...friends' feeling.......please......
a word would hurt people for thousand years....

What is next...

Life is great...life is complicated...life is a commitment...life is a duty....life is everything....
Life....life...what ever happens...life goes on....life must go on....
But we never can expect what is next....that will happen...even the plan is done...but still could not predict...what is next...because everything is not in our hand...just pray for the best thing for the next life......amin!!
Forget the past...live for the next...must be stronger than yesterdayssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!

Say it isn't so....

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call
You board the train
Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Mmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so

Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, whoa...

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say it isn't so

Miles and miles to go,
Before I can say, before I can lay
My love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go,
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again.

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Everything is not as easy as A, B, C....

Yes...I found it true!!!! Some people I met..never ever been grateful with the things come to them...For them...everything is easy to get...n east to lose...never appreciate people around them..never been thankful to the kindness of other people to them...never appreciate he others' feeling...why these type of people are been gbiven chances to live......???????????
Why they must ignore the beauty of friendship....why they never respect their friends' feeling..why they tend to hurt their friend...why they they must back stabbing their own friend just to satisfy themselves?????????????????
And why I must mingle with these type of people....something jerking me...but....these are always seeking for me..n my emphatic slowly goes to them....y....????
Y me....????? I want to ignore them!!!!!!!!!!!
IGNORE FOR THE ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!!
If you think that is easy for you to break...to hurt others' heart...then go on...breaking...n hurting...but once you feel the same thing....then you will know how it is going to kill your feeling....
You will know how hard to mend it...to cure it n to recover from it..God is always be with good people..God knows the best to His caliph...God knows when is the right time for you to feel it that way....you will suffer it thousand times compared to what you have done to the others.....I believe in karma...May Allah gives you the guide to the truth....shines your heart to the right way....leads you to the correct path....pull you out of the darkness...go n seek for His forgiveness...so that you will life peacefully....If you think that is easy for you to do anything without any limit.....you are wrong.....someday..there will come time for you to feel the same way like what you had done to you friends.......Life is no like playing poker..the winner will get money for the triumph...but not all the time....sometime we get down....collapse....n to get up...need hands to help....who????????????????? One day..you will understand it more....deepest meaning...Life is just like a roller coaster...ups n downs...need to be stronger...n brave heart....

Marking paper...

Meeting started at 8.30....got almost 300 scripts to marked within 11 days....hoping that I am able to complete it all...before the due date....wish everything is good..moga2 Allah permudahkan segala urusanku..amin!

Am back!!!!

Huh!!!! after 6.5 hours driving...am now in KT....leaving the hectic city....leaving the bitterness back...leaving every drop of tear...along the highway...became the rain drops...wish everything clean n clear now....reaching 2010...hoping everything will be better...don't want to mingle with anything that would harm ....hurt me...KL for almost 4 days...sometime happy...enjoy...but sorrowfully was also there..but now am wake up!!! Something awaken me!!!!! Life goes on....with stronger heart....cold heart???????????????hhehehehehe...may b....wish that 2009 will be ended with a lot of sweet memories to bring forward....n a lot of lessons to be my teacher for the next time....good bye to all....2009...leave me peacefully...please....

Hati menangis...xsiapa peduli...

Menangis selagi mampu...
Mengeluh selagi berdaya...
Bertahan selagi kekuatan ada...
Hati sayu..pilu....sedih..remuk....resah...segalanya di situ...
Mengharapkan agar 2010 akan datang..segalanya bermula dengan lebih baik dari 2009...
Mengharapkan agar..2010 tiada lagi kisah sedih yang berulang...
Ingin kutinggalkan segalanya jauh di belakang...agar ia tidak mengekori ke mana saja langkah ku..
Ya Allah...kuatkan semangatku....bantulah aku dalam menangani segalanya....amin!

Next trip...

Salam...the whole day...was out at school..town n etc...got so many things to do..and also unexpected work suddenly given to me...haiyya boss..next time don;t do like this maaa.....u made me so fatigue...damn tired thingking of the solution...which is never ever settled if the person in charge would not lend his hand to help....huhuhuhuhu...
So tomorrow....sett off to Kuantan around 9 am as planned...so still not yet packing my stuff to bring there...next day oso have to drop by at school to collect some more other things to bring...this afternoon was rushing to settle some work n to go town ......penat!!
Bos plak suddenly order kek 2 biji!!! isk,,,boss ni dah tau jadual aku tadi....semapt2 je dia main order..sorry puan..sempat buat sebijik je..ye......huhuhuhuh..mane nak dan 2 bj sampai umah pon dah kul 9....esok nak drive kg kuantan..xkan nak tido kul 4 pagi....barang2 pon xpack lagi....hadui!!!!!

BBQ with my students..

Hai..salam...
lama x up date blog....bz skit...macam2 hal...semalam last paper untuk budak2 aliran sains skolahku...so hari ni kitaorang ber'bbq'..for the last day...semalam agak pack masa...malam tadi..bz prepared utk menu hari ni...ayam panggang...puding n macam2....penat betul hari ini..tapi enjoy....budak2 pon happy je....hehehehe...start kul 10 pagi...lewat nak tunggu bara api untuk panggang ayam2 tu semua....erm..boss pon join kami hari ini...heheheheheheh....boss kami kalo bab makan..sempoi...tu yang best sebab selalu je ade high-table asrama....idea boss lah tu..so kami semua leh tumpang makan....hehehehehehe...xsempat posing bnyk2....beberapa keping je snapped tadi......inilah dia....

Relief..

Alhamdulillah...the paper wasn't so difficult..pray for my students to get flying color!!!!!!

Good Luck...Tomorrow..

To all my beloved students....all the best for ur chemistry paper tomorrow...semoga kejayaan mengiringi usaha kalian selama ini......

had fun..enjoy myself!

Today...I really enjoyed myself...with them...
I will be missing them next time...

Mending time...

Hi.. n salam...
What a good sunny day..today...I colud see the sun shines..through out the day...dawn to dusk..
And I'm easily driving to my work...seeing their faces...gave me a satisfaction..I will be missing them...next time...
It has been a long time I did not write...did not make any up date on this site...Yea..am a bit busy...doing this n that...I like to cherish up my day n night with work...so that I do not even have much more time to think about anything else...even at night I could not have enough sleep.....hehehehehe...
Lately..a lot of unnecessary things came across..my day..n yet..i don't have any way of solution..to mend it all...I even do not have much time...to settle down everything..Y???? I don't have any appropriate reason...just let it be...just let it there...some good day..I will mend it all..I will find another new way of settling it all..perhaps so...

hurmm....

hurm...huh....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....hurm...erm...??????????

Sakit pinggang...

Argh..backache is coming again...................

silence...

keep silent....
silence brings thousand meanings....
the best way is..stay calm...patient...n silent...
silence kills every loud of noise..
silence shuts every opening mouth...
silence gives the satisfaction..

Activity...

today...early morning got extra chemistry class with form four students...A bit late reached at school...waited for my students..tot they were not coming..but they sat at another class...so started the class around 9.30 a.m...
Got an early bird call..my daddy called from Mecca...informed that he alreadt came back from Mina..alhamdulillah..
So..the topic salt could not be completed...the students were so eager to go home at 12...it was raining in the morning..till now...so will be continued next year.....if am alive...
Rushed to CIMB to make a payment....since I noticed that tomorrow is 3rd of Dec...so need to clear up the payment b4 4th....
It is still raining outside...probably the next day...flood again....n will stuck at home again!
Am still thinking n thinking..what is the best thing to do....huh????????????????

Susah sgt ke nak bagi peluang....

Kenapa susah nak bagi peluang?????????Kenapa susah nak trust orang lain....?
Dan kenapa mesti jadi macam tu?????????????
Kenapa pilih untuk jadi macam tu...?Teruk sangat ke orang lain tu....kenapa susah nak bercakap benar..kenapa mesti tipu sana tipu sini..apa yg korang dapat ye??/
Bagilah peluang kat diri sendiri untuk jadi seorang yg dipercayai....sudah2 lah jadi penipu....cubalah jadi orang yg jujur....cukupla tipu kawan-kawan semata-mata kepentingan diri....x kan ke mana semua tu....

One day..

I met him after a year leaving...
the last word given to him....Stop seeking for me....and I left him...He looked unsatisfying...n said...why simply said these words......
I noted that u r feeling less...n u will never consider my last words...n I know that he never meant to what he had said or what he had done..His words were always...nothing....Just words..with no intention.....

life is easy come n easy go

Life is not like a bed of roses...looking good n beautiful outside...but full with thorns...if not carefully to touch...we might be hurt ourselves..same goes to life...full of ups n downs...sometime uncertain things happened beyond our expectation...unpredictable!
But if we are really smart n know how to handle this life...everything seems to be very easy...but its just words...which portrayed something easy but the fact is opposed it..true!
So many times I'd been in the same situation...and so many times I failed to be strict to myself...used to bend my promises...just because my empathy to others! but who cares about me? Definitely nobody...helping the others without expecting the refund!!!Yes....I never expect someone will give back their help to return my kindness but I believe in karma...someday...there will be a good Samaritan who comes to our life..who will save us...help us...and than disappeared after the help....I wish to be like that....but when??????????????? It is just like a daydream...isn't it?
I don't know how to be a reluctant person to those who are always giving me a trouble....It seems very hard to speak up with the word 'NO'....am not saying that I'm damn good in helping other people...but the situation always goes like this..happens to me very often...Once am trying to forget...to chase away every bad stories....it will appear again in another episode of my life....how hard I tried to avoid it....than it will easily come....n again am defeated by my self....my strength gone by the wind....
It is hard to treat people fairly...it is difficult to be fair..to all people...and the hardest part......is to give humans satisfaction....I put my effort working on it....but it resulted...me...disappointment!
Frustrated....it is hard to find a trust in other people...out of the blue moon to find honesty....
Sometime talking to myself....(sort of mumbling to myself) why me????????? Why they all people are always take for granted,,,,selfish???????????? Is it very difficult to honest...to your friend....to treat your friend just like a friend.....not like a slave....or like a welfare centre...or welfare officer....?
What is the meaning of F.R.I.E.N.D to you.....??????????????????????
I know..it depends on what you're thinking...some people say friend is like a normal person..who can give help during the hardship...or what so ever...it can be anything...according to what people describe it...right?
I'm very tired to face..to be in this situation...am going to stop everything so that I can enjoy my life happily...without these types of people who r always burden me!!!!! ( I'm gonna loose my rewards from Him since I'm blabbering for every good thing I'd done....?????????? OMG......)
whatever...this entry is just my writing to relief the painful inside...it is not an ordinary pain...it just more than the pain...which is cannot express by words..or even by action...but enough to tell that every time this situation happens...it hurts me very much............I keep hoping that those person really understand this.....n respond in a good way to me....(but it is just a dream or nightmare!..hahaha)
The thing like that will never happen!!!! As long as they are like that...so they are always like that...nobody is gonna change them..until they realise to be better than yesterday...to do the best in their life.......may the merciful will be credited to them...as the pay of good deed in their life...hope so....May God opens their eyes widely to see the more n most beautiful things in this world...may God awakes them to feel the reality...that they are not living in their own life...they are not building their own civilization or kingdom......wake up friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!