Leaving...

Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting For You

Glenn Medeiros - Nothing's Gonna change my love for you

Eagles - Hotel California

!!!!!

I never feel this way......I never cry aloud....as loud as I can...since my late mum left me..but this moment...I am!!!
God knows why....n me know why....I am damn.....damn...damn....disgruntled!!!Sad!!!!
All bad feelings with me now................................and again am wailing....wailing....wailing....like a small child...loosing her/his mummy!! But me???? Yes...am loosing...too........God knows very well things had happened....and I need to b stronger...n stronger...I wanna walk away to forget every sadness....I am looking for the ray of happiness...I want to paint my life like a colourful rainbow...so that every single day in life I can count on it..when I  am sad...God....guide me to b more n more n more..stronger!!!! Ya Allah....kuatkan semangatku yang semakin hari semakin hilang...
dan hari ini...segalanya bertambah celaru..haru-biru...when I stand alone on my own feet..stranded alone seeking the way to solve the puzzle..Oh God...send me ur angle...so that I can feel the calm.....

Another music ....by Kitaro - The Silk Road

Amazing....KITARO - Matsuri

M.Nasir^^Keroncong Untuk Ana.....

Kepadamu Kekasih - M Nasir

Falsafah Cinta - M.Nasir & Rahim Maarof

M. Nasir - Di Balik Cermin Mimpi

M.Nasir - Malam

M.Nasir - Yang Bertakhta Akhirnya

M Nasir - Impian Seorang Nelayan

m nasir - keroncong untuk ana

M Nasir - Suatu Masa

M Nasir - Medley Gitaro

Rossa - Hati Yang Kau Sakiti

My new hero...

My newly born Muhammad Danial...welcome sweetie...to the world...Smoga jadi anak yang soleh....taat pada umi n ayah....Kakak Balqis...dah xleh nakal2...ye sayang...kena tlg umi jaga adik tau....Kakak Balqis is a 'dud del'..(good girl)....'Tek Tue'...tau kakak good girl...sayang korang semua...nnt kita jumpa ye Danial sayang..........tek tue bz lg skrg ni....xdapat jumpa Danial lagi.....InsyaAllah..panjang umur nnt kita jumpa ye sayang...Kakak Balqis n baby Danial...Thanks to ayah...for sending the up date n recent pic Danial....c ya guys!

deep down inside

Salam...
my mood to up date my blog  is slowly gone...am not anymore interested to up date this blog...
Deep down inside in my heart....there are something unrelieved..i'm just waiting...n waiting...for the time..hoping there will b something happen...next....so that i'm not such in that guilty...for the rest of life...

Strolling....

Salam....am back!!!! Just to share my activities for today..summary of the day.......'enjoyment''....huhuhu will up date the pics later....

Free....

Well...just at home!
Huhuhuhuhh...I got 2 Fireflyz free ticket...it was given by someone...to me...but the condition of booking must be done a month b4 travel date...n that ticket will b expired on 2nd June 2010...that man gave to me last week....huhuhu so now..the problem encountered was....the date I picked to travel is not available...peak season la...bla..bla...n they suggested a date which is my friend most probably could not join me!!!! Huhuhuhhuuhuhu...We have to change the destination...initially...we planned to go Medan...but since there were to many problem...(date n time)...we have to change...may b Langkawi...if not..i will use that ticket to travle..KT-KL...KT-KL...huhuhuhuhuhuhuh..
it is normal for the free gift...sometime things are not easily get...there must be some other conditions....rite?
whatever!!!!tired of thinking....n calling for friends....
but am so eager...to b in Sabah next week...friend just call...n InsyaAllah..I will b there...n oso Manokan Island..
n she is willing to help for booking the place...thanks fren!! Hope everything is going good..n better....
Pray for good thing....expecting for better life...in the future...hoping for every step...I walk..blessed by Allah..
Amin!!!
Owh...the course I attended this morning...was very good...compliment abounded to the JUs...hehehehehe...the slots were done shortly...but very effective! So waiting for next slot tomorrow..lalalalalal..till then..tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Converting...?

Today again I have to attend the English Proficiency Course...for another slots..3 days...included my weekend...OMG!!! But it doesn't matter at all..heheheheh I like!
Owh...main idea of this entry...is...'CONVERSION COURSE'.....what is going to be converted?
Well....I might be converted to another option...as told by a JPN officer....(I guessed)..those who attended this course..completely 4 phases....so she or he already converted to English option...huhuhuhu...His words sort of annoying me...which turned me on to ask the JU...'sir..what is the main purpose of this course?'Is it the conversion course?'
He said..'sort of.....'
Me:' My major option....?'
JU:'U will have both...chemistry n English...'
Owh................

Gypsi

Choc finger vanilla n pandan coffee...layer cake

Yuhuuuu..Salam...
Hari ni penuh n padat jadual saya....Dari pagi bermula kehidpuan saya skitar jam 6.30 pg sudah pun berada di atas jalan raya...kerana hujung minggu ini saya habiskan bersama anak-anak buah pengarang jantung yang nakal n petah...so sayang nak tinggalkan mereka...maka pagi2 buta la saya bertolak untuk ke tempat kerja...Ye saya bekerja di hujung minggu..mendidika mereka yang ingin belajar...walau pun agak kecewa apabila tiba di makmal.hanya 12 orang yang setia menunggu...xapalah...ajarlah selagi mereka berminat..n selagi kudrat yg ada ni mampu...
So...sempat siapkan rekod mengajar n hantar ke pejabat..kunci office ada dalam tangan saya ..heheheh pagi-pagi saya call pihak pengurusan...so sala seorang GK datang serhakan kepada saya...hahahahaha...Esok saya akan pulangkan....So..sempat saya submit RM...disebabkan hari Khamis saya M.C...alhamdulillah..dah lega kepala saya hari ni...hurm..hari ni habis kelas sekitar 12.30...saya siapkan sedikit kerja...on the way balik...sempat singgah di gerai ikan..mencari sedikit lauk..mentah...so dapatlah ikan kembong segar...n juga ikan cermin...masak tumis ...letak kacang bendi...sedap tu......so sampai kat rumah...saya mula selesiakan kerja-kerja house keeping...pergh.....penat sungguh....tp puas hati....
petang plak..saya godekkan dua bj kek....kek lapis jejari coklat n kek lapis kopi pandan....resepi asal saya ambil dr buku tulisan rabiah amit..pastu saya godek2 n ubah suai...hehehehehe....sebab ada bahan yg xde..so saya alter skit jd bleh guna bahan2 yg dah sedia ada..maka siaplah 2 bj kek tu....photo??..oooooooooooowh..nanti lepas ni lah saya letakkan...so..saya nk iron baju utk minggi ni..xde lah saya kelam kabut pagi2....hahah sememangnya saya agak kurang berdisiplin kalo bab2 pergi kerja....hahahahaha...saya sdg berusaha untuk berubah...ke arah yg lebih baik..lalalalalalalala...ok tadaaaaaaaaaaaa!

'mushroom pasta'

Salam....
Kali ni lapo......macam malas nak godek apa2 kat dapur....selongkar rak...ada instant...soup Campbells,,,yg beli kat Giant arituu...muwallah...buka....zass......letak dalam mangkuk.....slurpppppppp..tuang air panas.....biar 10minit....bg pasta tu lembut....then apa lagi...perut lapar.....ngap!!!!
heheheh menu paling cepat.....kenyang utk seketika....pastu tido!!!!
lalalalalalala......sekarang nasi hanya makan time brunch...around..9-10 pagi...pastu no more eating rice...hehehhehe bkn diet pon...sendir hilang selera.da.....apa nak buat...hurm...weight loss??
xde plak rasanya berat tu turun...sama je rasa....lama xtimbang..alhamdulillah...lega skit perut..tadi ala2 vibrate jerk..hahahhaa..so till then..nk tido...pening kepala..manjang...2-3 hari ni...panas kot....campur lak migraine yg dah mmg berumah di sini....so tido dulu...tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

Relief...

Salam.....
Am home.....lalalalalalala....Wah! Great for todat's activities....everything went well....am satisfied!
Started this morning with the program...good job of me!....hurm am earlier for today to reach at work!...thanks God!..
Am oso feeling this way for the completed work...Done it this afternoon...just waiting for tomorrow...another chemistry paper...hopefully by Thursday am able to finish marking all 2 classes..
For today...am happy....La isla bonita...lalalalalalala...
Need to rest n relax..till then...tadaaaaaaaaaaa...

It is...

Better to stay in peace....not to talk...not to share...
Better to put a distance...thousands miles...or even more...than that.
Good to be like this...looking without saying...no action.
 just me,,,a small person...who can feel anything...who can read everything..smell bad or good things..
preferable to disconnect for a moment..cos I don't wana know....those lies..
me...who suffered so much...betrayed...n now let me be in my own world..
my world without u is sometime better..my world without any gossips much more better...
the time for me to do the best for my life...eliminate things that unnecessary..so now am quit...am off to my own way...bye ..bye..bye...
It is me....I am me...me myself...and I.....

Alhamdulillah...

 Ada sapa2 nak resepi 'instant home mada corn porridge'......jom....
Jagung 14 biji (saya beli 14 biji)
Santan RM4 (harga kat kg saya..malas nak parut kelapa sendiri..heheh beli je yg dah siap kat kedai) - lebih kurang sebiji kelapa...kot
Daun pandan 2 helai
 Telur ayam 2 biji
Manisan (gula melaka@gula merah) nak letak gula pasir pon ok...
Garam secukup rasa...
Air...agak2lah

Godek..............
Masak jagung dgn air..nak bg empuk...(betul2 masak..)
then tambah santan
pastu masukkan garam...gula melaka or gula pasir..mana2 yg suka la
pastu masuk telur.....

Salam...Hurm lega...meeting hari ni ringkas n padat...Boss pun joined sekejap je...so everything finished at time..lalalalala.....thanks God!
Tinggal je lagi..nak buat head count yg tertangguh2....hinggakan penyelaras form 5 dah sebut nama dalam meeting...hahahahahaha...S/U projek naik nama!Wakakakaka...aku gelak kambing je lah....hihihihi..ok..ok..promised! PAling cepat esok kau hantar ye Madam Chua..(satu2nya guru berbangsa Cina di sekolah aku).
Hurm..kebetulan plak ada org dtg jual jagung....so dua plastik RM10...murah je kan?adala 14 biji dalam tu...so balik rumah aku godek2...maka terhasillah bubur jagung...lalalala...byk plak tu buat...macam nak kenduri je...hahahah..xpe2..dah agih ke kak ipar..n esok leh bawak ke sekolah...erm plan nak wat puding jagung...tp macam byk lagi kije..so postpone esok...wah...request geng2 makmal nak makan mii kari...erm...laksa penang...minggu ni mcm full..InsyaAllah geng...next week..la kita kenduri makan laksa n mi tu ye...Wah! Si hitamku dah sampai masa utk dihantar service..tapi belum ada kesempatan...full manjang!
Bila la dapat celah ni..nk CRK...rasa xbest plak...erm....hehehehehe...plan B!
Hik hik hik...Malam tadi betul2 rasa xlarat...sakit tekak...then sejuk kaki n tangan...then shivering...dunno y..so after having a PCM...(Uphamol)...slept...then around 3 a.m awaken..felt much better..alhamdulillah.
For tonight...I need to prepare everything earlier..tomorrow I have to handle the Reading Program...my turn..thankx God..I've done the material..jgn la lewat esok pagi...huhuhuhuh..susah tul nak awal ke tempat kerja!!! Siap awal..ada je benda yg dilengah2kan..hadui!!!!! Minta2 esok aku awal.....Amin!heheehhe...
So...summary for today...I feel GOOD!!!!! Yeaha!!!

Better

Salam..n alhamdulillah...
Thanks to the Almighty,,for giving me strength...to b stronger than yesterdays...
Even more am still having the empty feeling...but this is better than before...felt like a big rock on my head...n something stuck inside my blood capillary..which was annoyed me...hard to breath..but not...feel free....Alhamdulillah..no more headahce to think y is this n y is that....it is better to keep myself in peace...just hohum the things around me...
Erm think have to stop..writing..feeling not good...tired..headahce..just like going to get fever...hopefully getting better 2moro...
Esok meeting to handle..Ya Allah...give me more....n more energy...to stay healthy..for the next day....Amin!
Till then..bye....nite..

Course..

Salam....
These few days...seen...so many things...n sometime felt sad..with these worse situation happens between us..
Why they use to argue amongst them??? In the midst of harmony...peaceful why people created something worse...is it to worsen the peacefully life we have right now?
Fighting...fighting..n fighting...here said they are good n right..there said they are damn2 good compared to others...Come on...if u r the best..then please show the best part of yours...show the right n correct...which is synchronize to ur words as well lah..but...everyone when it goes to speech...I think they r very good enough..but to implement the words to work....hurm...normally...things turn to opposite...words come to action...never matched well...as what I seen before...
So...there is nothing much to complaint...or comment..am on my way on the right track doing my job as well as I can...help the others as good as I can...am avoiding much speech...but am practicing more effective work....action speaks louder than word...that's better...if too much talking...just like a chatter's box...work will never be good...the out put will never b as we planned..so let's work with peace...use rational mind n thought...so that...we will be a person who has a vision...talking too much...brings nothing at the end. Just prove what u have said...showed it that words n work...at the same track..
Hurm..today's activity...is nothing much different...attended the Curriculum Pedagogy Course...speaker from JPNT...something good gained....clear information of TOV, OTI, ETR n etc...these terms use in evaluating students' performance..I think many of us misunderstood with these words...hahahaahah..So credits go to Mr. Razali from JPNT..
Afternoon....?I got some problems with my Samsung lappy...which belongs to my school..but left it already at the proper place...since that am doing my work using my own lappy...huhuhuhuh...Prefer to do official work with dat Samsung..but since something wrong with it...just use m own...even afraid of getting the virus attack!!! huhuhuhuh...the pen drive itself...would bring harm...huhuhuhuhu..hadui!
I need to go....now..no more idea..to write...initially..berkobar2 to write something..but stuck in the middle...so till then....babai!

My weekend...

Salam
Alhamdulillah...everything is back to the track...and am now feeling much better...relief..no more worry...no more rush hour...to b here n to get there....so...my last week days just like slipped from the track..not at all but a bit...whatever it is am satisfied....
So my weekend is going to end...tomorrow have to attend the course organized by my school management...hurm...
Owh...my condolence to Arwah Din Bermboi's family...al-fatihah,,,we are going to miss him very much for every morning....may Allah blesses him...
Am oso relief for finishing my pending task..n submitted already..yeaha!!! So materials for the next meeting almost done...just need to send for photocopy... ..
Hurm...another thing????
My mind is now not afford to think more about work....what is in my mind now...:wana sleep n rest...hehehehehe..so till the next entry...daaaaaaaaa