Hati ini...

Dalam hati ada rindu.....rindu pada yg xsudi...
Entah bila rindu itu akan pergi..terbang bersama camar laut..
Iringi kepulangan nelayan..di waktu senja..
Dalam hati ada luka...yang akan berparut...entah bila akan sembuh!
Dalam hati ada resah.....menunggu tenang..
Dalam hati ada rintihan yang tak mampu diluah...
Dalam hati ada harapan.....yang pastinya tinggal harapan....berkubur di dalam hati..

Hina dina....

Hina..keji....teruk.....ada manusia yang sanggup pedajalkan orang lain semata-mata untuk kepuasan diri...sebab busuk hati!!!
Semoga Allah bagi balasan yang lebih atas apa yang dia lakukan kat orang lain!!!

Lagi banyakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!

Hadui....semalam kat tempat kerja....tak semena-mena saya dapat call dari berpuluh-puluh numbers n sms masuk inbox tak henti2 sehingga saya terpaksa block n blacklist semua unknowm numbers...Ada orang pedajalkan saya!!!! Saya cuba tanyakan kepada salah seorang penghantar sms tu...nasib baik la dia ok n bg kerjasama..dia gtau ada orang bg number saya tru celcom chat! hadui..aku xpernah2 join celcom chat tu!!
 n makhluk jahat tu guna nama gds sunyi...patut la call yg saya jwb tu ada sebt pasal sunyi2....aduilah..siapa lah punya angkara!!!! mudah-mudahan Allah balas kat dia berganda2...biar Allah bg dia susah...n hingga pagi ni pon masih ada lagi pnaggilan dr unknown number..sms xhenti..tp saya dah block semua tu...walaupon saya block..tp saya masih bleh check rejected call log n sms log .....huhuhuhuuhhuh...kenapa la manusia ni hatinya busuk..pedajalkan orang sampai macam tu sekali...rasanya saya xde buat salah kat sapa2...xsakitkan ati sesapa...orang yg sakitkan ati saya...buat saya macam2 tu ramai lah......huhuuhu

Harrassment!!!!!!!

Since last week..I got an SMS..from unknown number, so I reply and asked who...the owner did not reply..so I tried to call..no answer and I ignored..then after that another SMS sent to me..form the same number..told to be my friend..and again I ignored..after that..the sender keep sending me SMS n also miscalls me day ..night n also during midnight.. then I called n talked to him!!! Initially with a soft spoken I explained to him...but he insisted to be my friend..so I just let him keep messaging me without any reply..till I felt that annoying!!! So I reply and told again not to disturb me..but he was so stubborn!!!  So I have no choice n talked with a high tone...with some certain words which were quite  harsh..but still did not work!! Things went worse when he started to message me about **** n also sent **** MMS...!!!!Damn!!!!!!He was really SUCK!!!!
My friend gave the solution to install the blacklist application n spam killer aps in my phone and thanks God it really works!!!!Thanks my friend...Tonight I got another new SMS n miscall from another new number..so again I put the new unknown number into the blacklist...hopefully that crook will stop annoying me...tired to b like this situation...put me under pressure...with the pending n awaiting tasks at work...another burden on shoulders to carry on...made me stress...people keep pushing n chasing me to do these n those...because it is hard for me to say NO...am not so soft-hearted...but sometimes when it comes the situation like what I am facing now..it is like killing myself if I gave the word NO! Whatever condition n situation..I try my best to complete it all...this coming holidays...days will be packed with so many activities...1st n 2nd week..full with wedding invitation to attend...camp for excellent students...trip to Cameron Highlands...n so on....huh!!! and again $$$ will be flew by the wind...muahahahahaha..till the next entry....nite!!f

Visiting Balqis n Danial....

Tadaaaaaaaaa...hari ni cek sue went to Jerangau Barat....huhuh 1st time driving to the destination....alhamdulillah..easily found the place to go.....Tada!!! Met my lovely Balqis...n newborn hero..Danial...but Qis a bit smaller than before..she is missing her father...ciannya..cayang cek sue sorng..Baby Danial..tido je manjang.....then went back to KT...after almost 2hrs there...and I was damn tired...asleep till...evening..all planned activities..canceled...due to...i was not feeling well....
and still tired...need to sleep now...2moro will be working day...n another story to go.....bye!

Weekend.......

Huhuhuhuh...rasa agak bosan this weekend...don't have any plan yet....and now am still here..sitting in front of my computer...clickling here n there...seaching..viewing...the sites..blogging...facebooking...gaming...hurm...this afternoon I should go somewhere...
MY 3-day course...ended well...very good..this phase...focus on writing...Thanks to all JUs...for helping us...guiding us...especially for the last session...marking session...
Last weekend went to KL....spent most of the time at Megamall Midvalley n Garden..so long I had not b there
So...since I do not have much ideas to drop any lines ahead...I should stop now....till the next entry..with more interesting up dates....lalalallala...wish next days will be more tremendous!! Wish my next weekends..will be more joy...amin!
Owh one more..latest news....to all friends ..please come n drops at my newsite....http://mylayercakes.blogspot.com/

Up date...

Up dating form..to submit.....kena submit gak whatever situation happens....ekekek year end 2010....mesti pursue..lalalala

Guru oh Guru.........

The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires. -William Arthur Ward

guru oh guru...............

BERBURU ke padang datar
Dapat rusa belang kaki
Berguru kepala ajar
Ibarat bunga kembang tak jadi
(dedikasi kepada Hari Guru dan guruku tercinta)

Dialah pemberi paling setia
Tiap akar ilmu miliknya
Pelita dan lampu segala
Untuk manusia sebelum jadi dewasa.

Dialah ibu dialah bapa juga sahabat
Alur kesetiaan mengalirkan nasihat
Pemimpin yang ditauliahkan segala umat
Seribu tahun katanya menjadi hikmat.

Jika hari ini seorang Perdana Menteri berkuasa
Jika hari ini seorang Raja menaiki takhta
Jika hari ini seorang Presiden sebuah negara
Jika hari ini seorang ulama yang mulia
Jika hari ini seorang peguam menang bicara
Jika hari ini seorang penulis terkemuka
Jika hari ini siapa sahaja menjadi dewasa;
Sejarahnya dimulakan oleh seorang guru biasa
Dengan lembut sabarnya mengajar tulis-baca.

Di mana-mana dia berdiri di muka muridnya
Di sebuah sekolah mewah di Ibu Kota
Di bangunan tua sekolah Hulu Terengganu
Dia adalah guru mewakili seribu buku;
Semakin terpencil duduknya di ceruk desa
Semakin bererti tugasnya kepada negara.
Jadilah apa pun pada akhir kehidupanmu, guruku
Budi yang diapungkan di dulangi ilmu
Panggilan keramat "cikgu" kekal terpahat
Menjadi kenangan ke akhir hayat.

USMAN AWANG
1979

Number One Teacher

I'm happy that you're my teacher;
I enjoy each lesson you teach.
As my role model you inspire me
To dream and to work and to reach.

With your kindness you get my attention;
Every day you are planting a seed
Of curiosity and motivation
To know and to grow and succeed.

You help me fulfill my potential;
I'm thankful for all that you've done.
I admire you each day, and I just want to say,
As a teacher, you're number one!

Teacher's day is coming.................

Hehehehehe....talking about celebrating Teacher's day..it makes me smile..widely...ear to ear...hahahahahaha...this morning i was bust tidying my files n tables...then someone shouted at me...about the celebration on this Sinday...n told about the nomination that will be done on that day...I was the nominated as...
cikgu paling garang'....wakakakakakaka.....me..laughed out loudly...kah kah kah..ini mesti kije budak2 halus lower form..ekekekekekek..maklum le..aku suka bebeno  nyakat deme2 lower form..wat2 garang time selisih dgn diorng..ekekekeek....saja hialngkan boring....keh keh keh..
apa2 pun happy teacher's day to all teachers...

Letting it go...

Letting go has never been easy, but holding on can be as difficult.
Yet strength is measured not by holding on, but by letting go.Letting go isn't about giving up. It's about accepting that there
are things that cannot be.We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to
accept the life that is waiting... for us.Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened

Up set...

Up set when I  got to know....that someone simply blocked me ....I do not know what I have done...just try to persuade myself...may b he/she had some good reasons of doing that way.....whatever he/she wants to do as long as she/he is happy...it is good for me...let them get their happiness by their own way...may Allah blesses them....amin!

Changes....

Salam....am back to this web....after so long...i was lost....everything almost gone...included the idea to write..now I get back to the track..get back my life...I likely to loose myself...huh!!!
Terrible!!! Now I realized that life is not as what expected to be...but it is just like we have to accept things widely...opened heart...opened mind...the more u give..the more u get..no matter how people treat us...do not count on what good things we had done to them..but just remembered what they had given n helped us...it sounds hard to practice..but that is the best part of life...which is more to b giving than receiving...top hands are better....
Last 2 weeks I was in Borneo..spent my days with friends...in spite of to heal n mend my broken...to pick up the pieces of life...to combine it back to the shape...it is hard..but had to..n since that moment..I really know to think the previous years of helping...giving n taking...with some people but the will never appreciate..hence over used on me...poor myself...i did not mean to say it all back...but that were the facts ..and I used to learnt from the past mistake..day by day..things gradually...changed...and now feel much better..but hurt is hurt...bitter is bitter..and wound is there...no matter how sweet my smiling is...how happy I am...deep down inside...wound will never b cured...scar is stay remains...even I am already moved on...stepping to the next field...but the things are the same...
A lot of changes happened these few days...starting with my duty...am not anymore need to handle all the projects for SPM program...but now I am just have to monitor...it all..feel good n much better..but still helping the new comer to handle it...am now focusing on my teaching n learning...preparing for a chemistry module..do it by myself..something that am simplify it for those who are like my student...they do not have a very strong basic..so need to guide them from the beginning..for English...am not yet thinking what material to do n focus...but am trying to prepare it.....insyaAllah..God will help me...
the new timetable..quite pack...am almost breathless...rush here n there...every morning...a bit tired...but things that have to carry on..no matter how hard the feeling is....that is the way...ok till next entry...bye.

Boyz II Men A Song For Mama Lyrics

AIRMATA IBU - SITI NURHALIZA

You're My Everything by Santa Esmeralda..to all mums...happy mother's day...nothing precious than u..

Vacation.....healing time..

Here we go....

Vacation to the land of Borneo...

Leaving...

Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting For You

Glenn Medeiros - Nothing's Gonna change my love for you

Eagles - Hotel California

!!!!!

I never feel this way......I never cry aloud....as loud as I can...since my late mum left me..but this moment...I am!!!
God knows why....n me know why....I am damn.....damn...damn....disgruntled!!!Sad!!!!
All bad feelings with me now................................and again am wailing....wailing....wailing....like a small child...loosing her/his mummy!! But me???? Yes...am loosing...too........God knows very well things had happened....and I need to b stronger...n stronger...I wanna walk away to forget every sadness....I am looking for the ray of happiness...I want to paint my life like a colourful rainbow...so that every single day in life I can count on it..when I  am sad...God....guide me to b more n more n more..stronger!!!! Ya Allah....kuatkan semangatku yang semakin hari semakin hilang...
dan hari ini...segalanya bertambah celaru..haru-biru...when I stand alone on my own feet..stranded alone seeking the way to solve the puzzle..Oh God...send me ur angle...so that I can feel the calm.....

Another music ....by Kitaro - The Silk Road

Amazing....KITARO - Matsuri

M.Nasir^^Keroncong Untuk Ana.....

Kepadamu Kekasih - M Nasir

Falsafah Cinta - M.Nasir & Rahim Maarof

M. Nasir - Di Balik Cermin Mimpi

M.Nasir - Malam

M.Nasir - Yang Bertakhta Akhirnya

M Nasir - Impian Seorang Nelayan

m nasir - keroncong untuk ana

M Nasir - Suatu Masa

M Nasir - Medley Gitaro

Rossa - Hati Yang Kau Sakiti

My new hero...

My newly born Muhammad Danial...welcome sweetie...to the world...Smoga jadi anak yang soleh....taat pada umi n ayah....Kakak Balqis...dah xleh nakal2...ye sayang...kena tlg umi jaga adik tau....Kakak Balqis is a 'dud del'..(good girl)....'Tek Tue'...tau kakak good girl...sayang korang semua...nnt kita jumpa ye Danial sayang..........tek tue bz lg skrg ni....xdapat jumpa Danial lagi.....InsyaAllah..panjang umur nnt kita jumpa ye sayang...Kakak Balqis n baby Danial...Thanks to ayah...for sending the up date n recent pic Danial....c ya guys!

deep down inside

Salam...
my mood to up date my blog  is slowly gone...am not anymore interested to up date this blog...
Deep down inside in my heart....there are something unrelieved..i'm just waiting...n waiting...for the time..hoping there will b something happen...next....so that i'm not such in that guilty...for the rest of life...

Strolling....

Salam....am back!!!! Just to share my activities for today..summary of the day.......'enjoyment''....huhuhu will up date the pics later....

Free....

Well...just at home!
Huhuhuhuhh...I got 2 Fireflyz free ticket...it was given by someone...to me...but the condition of booking must be done a month b4 travel date...n that ticket will b expired on 2nd June 2010...that man gave to me last week....huhuhu so now..the problem encountered was....the date I picked to travel is not available...peak season la...bla..bla...n they suggested a date which is my friend most probably could not join me!!!! Huhuhuhhuuhuhu...We have to change the destination...initially...we planned to go Medan...but since there were to many problem...(date n time)...we have to change...may b Langkawi...if not..i will use that ticket to travle..KT-KL...KT-KL...huhuhuhuhuhuhuh..
it is normal for the free gift...sometime things are not easily get...there must be some other conditions....rite?
whatever!!!!tired of thinking....n calling for friends....
but am so eager...to b in Sabah next week...friend just call...n InsyaAllah..I will b there...n oso Manokan Island..
n she is willing to help for booking the place...thanks fren!! Hope everything is going good..n better....
Pray for good thing....expecting for better life...in the future...hoping for every step...I walk..blessed by Allah..
Amin!!!
Owh...the course I attended this morning...was very good...compliment abounded to the JUs...hehehehehe...the slots were done shortly...but very effective! So waiting for next slot tomorrow..lalalalalal..till then..tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Converting...?

Today again I have to attend the English Proficiency Course...for another slots..3 days...included my weekend...OMG!!! But it doesn't matter at all..heheheheh I like!
Owh...main idea of this entry...is...'CONVERSION COURSE'.....what is going to be converted?
Well....I might be converted to another option...as told by a JPN officer....(I guessed)..those who attended this course..completely 4 phases....so she or he already converted to English option...huhuhuhu...His words sort of annoying me...which turned me on to ask the JU...'sir..what is the main purpose of this course?'Is it the conversion course?'
He said..'sort of.....'
Me:' My major option....?'
JU:'U will have both...chemistry n English...'
Owh................

Gypsi

Choc finger vanilla n pandan coffee...layer cake

Yuhuuuu..Salam...
Hari ni penuh n padat jadual saya....Dari pagi bermula kehidpuan saya skitar jam 6.30 pg sudah pun berada di atas jalan raya...kerana hujung minggu ini saya habiskan bersama anak-anak buah pengarang jantung yang nakal n petah...so sayang nak tinggalkan mereka...maka pagi2 buta la saya bertolak untuk ke tempat kerja...Ye saya bekerja di hujung minggu..mendidika mereka yang ingin belajar...walau pun agak kecewa apabila tiba di makmal.hanya 12 orang yang setia menunggu...xapalah...ajarlah selagi mereka berminat..n selagi kudrat yg ada ni mampu...
So...sempat siapkan rekod mengajar n hantar ke pejabat..kunci office ada dalam tangan saya ..heheheh pagi-pagi saya call pihak pengurusan...so sala seorang GK datang serhakan kepada saya...hahahahaha...Esok saya akan pulangkan....So..sempat saya submit RM...disebabkan hari Khamis saya M.C...alhamdulillah..dah lega kepala saya hari ni...hurm..hari ni habis kelas sekitar 12.30...saya siapkan sedikit kerja...on the way balik...sempat singgah di gerai ikan..mencari sedikit lauk..mentah...so dapatlah ikan kembong segar...n juga ikan cermin...masak tumis ...letak kacang bendi...sedap tu......so sampai kat rumah...saya mula selesiakan kerja-kerja house keeping...pergh.....penat sungguh....tp puas hati....
petang plak..saya godekkan dua bj kek....kek lapis jejari coklat n kek lapis kopi pandan....resepi asal saya ambil dr buku tulisan rabiah amit..pastu saya godek2 n ubah suai...hehehehehe....sebab ada bahan yg xde..so saya alter skit jd bleh guna bahan2 yg dah sedia ada..maka siaplah 2 bj kek tu....photo??..oooooooooooowh..nanti lepas ni lah saya letakkan...so..saya nk iron baju utk minggi ni..xde lah saya kelam kabut pagi2....hahah sememangnya saya agak kurang berdisiplin kalo bab2 pergi kerja....hahahahaha...saya sdg berusaha untuk berubah...ke arah yg lebih baik..lalalalalalalala...ok tadaaaaaaaaaaaa!

'mushroom pasta'

Salam....
Kali ni lapo......macam malas nak godek apa2 kat dapur....selongkar rak...ada instant...soup Campbells,,,yg beli kat Giant arituu...muwallah...buka....zass......letak dalam mangkuk.....slurpppppppp..tuang air panas.....biar 10minit....bg pasta tu lembut....then apa lagi...perut lapar.....ngap!!!!
heheheh menu paling cepat.....kenyang utk seketika....pastu tido!!!!
lalalalalalala......sekarang nasi hanya makan time brunch...around..9-10 pagi...pastu no more eating rice...hehehhehe bkn diet pon...sendir hilang selera.da.....apa nak buat...hurm...weight loss??
xde plak rasanya berat tu turun...sama je rasa....lama xtimbang..alhamdulillah...lega skit perut..tadi ala2 vibrate jerk..hahahhaa..so till then..nk tido...pening kepala..manjang...2-3 hari ni...panas kot....campur lak migraine yg dah mmg berumah di sini....so tido dulu...tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

Relief...

Salam.....
Am home.....lalalalalalala....Wah! Great for todat's activities....everything went well....am satisfied!
Started this morning with the program...good job of me!....hurm am earlier for today to reach at work!...thanks God!..
Am oso feeling this way for the completed work...Done it this afternoon...just waiting for tomorrow...another chemistry paper...hopefully by Thursday am able to finish marking all 2 classes..
For today...am happy....La isla bonita...lalalalalalala...
Need to rest n relax..till then...tadaaaaaaaaaaa...

It is...

Better to stay in peace....not to talk...not to share...
Better to put a distance...thousands miles...or even more...than that.
Good to be like this...looking without saying...no action.
 just me,,,a small person...who can feel anything...who can read everything..smell bad or good things..
preferable to disconnect for a moment..cos I don't wana know....those lies..
me...who suffered so much...betrayed...n now let me be in my own world..
my world without u is sometime better..my world without any gossips much more better...
the time for me to do the best for my life...eliminate things that unnecessary..so now am quit...am off to my own way...bye ..bye..bye...
It is me....I am me...me myself...and I.....

Alhamdulillah...

 Ada sapa2 nak resepi 'instant home mada corn porridge'......jom....
Jagung 14 biji (saya beli 14 biji)
Santan RM4 (harga kat kg saya..malas nak parut kelapa sendiri..heheh beli je yg dah siap kat kedai) - lebih kurang sebiji kelapa...kot
Daun pandan 2 helai
 Telur ayam 2 biji
Manisan (gula melaka@gula merah) nak letak gula pasir pon ok...
Garam secukup rasa...
Air...agak2lah

Godek..............
Masak jagung dgn air..nak bg empuk...(betul2 masak..)
then tambah santan
pastu masukkan garam...gula melaka or gula pasir..mana2 yg suka la
pastu masuk telur.....

Salam...Hurm lega...meeting hari ni ringkas n padat...Boss pun joined sekejap je...so everything finished at time..lalalalala.....thanks God!
Tinggal je lagi..nak buat head count yg tertangguh2....hinggakan penyelaras form 5 dah sebut nama dalam meeting...hahahahahaha...S/U projek naik nama!Wakakakaka...aku gelak kambing je lah....hihihihi..ok..ok..promised! PAling cepat esok kau hantar ye Madam Chua..(satu2nya guru berbangsa Cina di sekolah aku).
Hurm..kebetulan plak ada org dtg jual jagung....so dua plastik RM10...murah je kan?adala 14 biji dalam tu...so balik rumah aku godek2...maka terhasillah bubur jagung...lalalala...byk plak tu buat...macam nak kenduri je...hahahah..xpe2..dah agih ke kak ipar..n esok leh bawak ke sekolah...erm plan nak wat puding jagung...tp macam byk lagi kije..so postpone esok...wah...request geng2 makmal nak makan mii kari...erm...laksa penang...minggu ni mcm full..InsyaAllah geng...next week..la kita kenduri makan laksa n mi tu ye...Wah! Si hitamku dah sampai masa utk dihantar service..tapi belum ada kesempatan...full manjang!
Bila la dapat celah ni..nk CRK...rasa xbest plak...erm....hehehehehe...plan B!
Hik hik hik...Malam tadi betul2 rasa xlarat...sakit tekak...then sejuk kaki n tangan...then shivering...dunno y..so after having a PCM...(Uphamol)...slept...then around 3 a.m awaken..felt much better..alhamdulillah.
For tonight...I need to prepare everything earlier..tomorrow I have to handle the Reading Program...my turn..thankx God..I've done the material..jgn la lewat esok pagi...huhuhuhuh..susah tul nak awal ke tempat kerja!!! Siap awal..ada je benda yg dilengah2kan..hadui!!!!! Minta2 esok aku awal.....Amin!heheehhe...
So...summary for today...I feel GOOD!!!!! Yeaha!!!

Better

Salam..n alhamdulillah...
Thanks to the Almighty,,for giving me strength...to b stronger than yesterdays...
Even more am still having the empty feeling...but this is better than before...felt like a big rock on my head...n something stuck inside my blood capillary..which was annoyed me...hard to breath..but not...feel free....Alhamdulillah..no more headahce to think y is this n y is that....it is better to keep myself in peace...just hohum the things around me...
Erm think have to stop..writing..feeling not good...tired..headahce..just like going to get fever...hopefully getting better 2moro...
Esok meeting to handle..Ya Allah...give me more....n more energy...to stay healthy..for the next day....Amin!
Till then..bye....nite..

Course..

Salam....
These few days...seen...so many things...n sometime felt sad..with these worse situation happens between us..
Why they use to argue amongst them??? In the midst of harmony...peaceful why people created something worse...is it to worsen the peacefully life we have right now?
Fighting...fighting..n fighting...here said they are good n right..there said they are damn2 good compared to others...Come on...if u r the best..then please show the best part of yours...show the right n correct...which is synchronize to ur words as well lah..but...everyone when it goes to speech...I think they r very good enough..but to implement the words to work....hurm...normally...things turn to opposite...words come to action...never matched well...as what I seen before...
So...there is nothing much to complaint...or comment..am on my way on the right track doing my job as well as I can...help the others as good as I can...am avoiding much speech...but am practicing more effective work....action speaks louder than word...that's better...if too much talking...just like a chatter's box...work will never be good...the out put will never b as we planned..so let's work with peace...use rational mind n thought...so that...we will be a person who has a vision...talking too much...brings nothing at the end. Just prove what u have said...showed it that words n work...at the same track..
Hurm..today's activity...is nothing much different...attended the Curriculum Pedagogy Course...speaker from JPNT...something good gained....clear information of TOV, OTI, ETR n etc...these terms use in evaluating students' performance..I think many of us misunderstood with these words...hahahaahah..So credits go to Mr. Razali from JPNT..
Afternoon....?I got some problems with my Samsung lappy...which belongs to my school..but left it already at the proper place...since that am doing my work using my own lappy...huhuhuhuh...Prefer to do official work with dat Samsung..but since something wrong with it...just use m own...even afraid of getting the virus attack!!! huhuhuhuh...the pen drive itself...would bring harm...huhuhuhuhu..hadui!
I need to go....now..no more idea..to write...initially..berkobar2 to write something..but stuck in the middle...so till then....babai!

My weekend...

Salam
Alhamdulillah...everything is back to the track...and am now feeling much better...relief..no more worry...no more rush hour...to b here n to get there....so...my last week days just like slipped from the track..not at all but a bit...whatever it is am satisfied....
So my weekend is going to end...tomorrow have to attend the course organized by my school management...hurm...
Owh...my condolence to Arwah Din Bermboi's family...al-fatihah,,,we are going to miss him very much for every morning....may Allah blesses him...
Am oso relief for finishing my pending task..n submitted already..yeaha!!! So materials for the next meeting almost done...just need to send for photocopy... ..
Hurm...another thing????
My mind is now not afford to think more about work....what is in my mind now...:wana sleep n rest...hehehehehe..so till the next entry...daaaaaaaaa

On Leave...

Salam to all.....
Today...I'm on leave...dawn to dusk I wasn't at home...got so many things to handle n settle...I also was at HSNZ...KT...but my poor of management...I had to ask myself several times for the booking place...naik turun tingkat 2-7...I noted that there ara limited places...especially for 1st class ward...2nd class ward pon sama..n the last...terpaksa masuk kelas 3...sesak...crowded yg teramat...pastu plak time melawat...penuh dgn relatives...friends...dah la bed tak cukup patient terpaksa tunggu tgh2 laluan...tunggu bed yg kosong....hadui!..someone should concern about this...to expand the place or even get a bigger place...this place is not anymore can afford to load so many patients...kesian la patients tu...hurm Ministry of Health..should alert with this situation..n take action....
Am damn tired to say much more than this..heheheheh so need to get some rest...2moro back to work!!!Huhuhuh..tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

STUPID or CARELESS ???

Salam...
I'm home!!!! But a bit anger....to the management who organizing the ENGLISH PROFICIENCY COURSE!!!
AGAIN...I GOT THE CALL LETTER...TO ATTEND THE COURSE FOR THE SAME PHASE..1st PHASE ON 15th-17th APRIL 2010....HOW COME I NEED TO ATTEND THE SAME COURSE TWICE?????
THEN I CALLED THE PERSON IN CHARGE N LET HER KNOW THE MATTER...HER ANSWER JUST VERY SIMPLE..
"U WRITE A LETTER TELLING THAT U HAVE ATTENDED THE COURSE SO THAT I CAN ERASE UR NAME...BIASALAH BANYAK2 NAME LIST.. DAH JADI BERTINDIH2.." SO WHAT???? u DID THE MISTAKE N U ASKED THE TEACHER TO WRITE THE LETTER....THIS IS SHOWED U R VERY STUPID IN ORGANIZING N HANDLING SOMETHING!!!! MY FRIEND OSO HAVING THE SAME PROBLEM WHICH IS SHE HAS TO ATTEND THE 1st PHASE COURSE ON 1st-3rd APRIL N AGAIN HAVE TO ATTEND THE SAME PHASE COURSE ON 15th-17th APRIL....SEE HOW THEY DO THE JOB!!!!
THEN LAST WEEK..THE SENT THE CALL LETTER LATE...WHILE THE SESSION ALREADY DONE...
SO EVERYONE WAS COMPLAINING..N NOW..AGAIN THEY DID THE MISTAKE...DIDN'T THEY REALIZE THAT MAJOR MISTAKE???IF U GOT THE NAME LIST THOSE WHO HAD ATTENDED...N U CHECKED THE LIST PROPERLY..THEN THERE WOULDN'T BE 2ND...3RD MISTAKE...JUST THE SAME THING!!!!
AND AGAIN THEY WON'T LISTEN TO US..THE TEACHERS....WE HAD COMPLAINED THAT NOT TO DO THIS COURSE DURING WEEKEND..BUT STILL....THEY WANTED TO HOLD IT DURING WEEKEND...I REALLY DO NOT KNOW HOW OR WHAT IS IN THEIR MIND....WEEKEND FOR TEACHERS TO GET REST..TO DO SOME HOUSE KEEPING....TO BE WITH FAMILY N ETC...THOSE WHO ARE PLANNING THE COURSE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND BECAUSE THEY JUST KNOW HOW TO PLAN BUT THEY NEVER EXPERIENCE IT THEMSELVES!!!! SORT OF THEY HAD LOST THE HUMANITY?????? NO COMMENT!!! BUT I'M VERY VERY VERY UNSATISFIED!!!! COZ THEY DID THE MISTAKE BUT THE TEACHERS HAD TO CARRY IT...HURM...THIS IS ONE OF THE WEAKNESS OF THE MoE...SMART IN PLANNING THIS N THAT COURSE....THIS N THAT PROGRAM...BUT THE IMPLEMENTATION...SOMETIME WORSE....OR EVEN WORST...

Exciting...

Salam....
Nothing much to share..just a simple story about work....work is never ending...
Hurmm....the 1st day of the week....(am in east coast so week starts with Sunday)..
Everything was good enough..with the classes...enjoyable...n excitement..teaching them today...May be my mmog was so so so so..good...hahahaahah...so after having the course last weekend...tot that it work...coz I tried to use the knowledge that I'd learn to my students..n they seem like it...hurm..so..for the next I think I can use it again...but hopefully the stay firm with it....not only excited for today...huhuhuhu...Extra classes..went well...n now am home..tonight another extra class to be handled..am I going??Perhaps so...heheheheeheh...But the material is not yet done...
Hurm...items to b discussed during meeting...this Wednesday still pending for the action...I need to work on it..if not..boss will shout out for something..hahahaha...
Thanks for the management team for the quick n short meeting for the shortage happened especially for SPM classes..after matter had arisen to my boss this morning..we all together had a meeting to solve it., n felt better after the discussion. Owh..this Tuesday am taking leave...there was not a big problem with my boss..tadaaaaaaaaa...a good employee...doesn't have any problem with the boss.right?ngeh3......I had an official thing to do...am not simply to skip for work....huhuhu am not such that type person....n not oso a hardworking person..wakakakaa...
Hurm...hopefully am enjoying this whole week....God blessing me....amin!!!!
Ok..need to break...for doing some other waiting work...tada!

1st phase English Proficiency Course

Alhamdulillah...the course ended as well as planned...Today's sessions quite exciting...we had poems reciting...singing..n etc...So awaiting for the next phase on April...but everybody hoped that to b done during weekdays...not anymore during weekend...For me myself...it doesn't matter at all at any time...
Feel so exhausted...since non-stop driving this weekend...very2 tiring..next phase planned to stay there..but the accommodation is not too good...but just ok.
If staying there...had some more time to spend with new colleagues..hehehehe..over all my new friends were so good n friendly...
Hurm telling about today's session...one part is about idiomatic expression...n phrasal verbs...wonderful...! My E72 helps me much!!! The dictionary in the application of E72 is very useful!! And everyone asked me about that gadget.. everyone has the hand phone and I believe that each h/phone has the same function....but might b they never explore it...so at least i shared some useful information with them....
Thanks my E72...no need to buy a new electronic dictionary after all...hehehehe
Hurm what is the purpose of attending this course??????? I have been informed that...those attended will get the certificate which is useful during 2012 when the implementation of MBMMBI...replaceing the PPSMI...so those who want to know more..please log on to Moe website...alright..those non-option (English) who got this certificate are qualified to teach English n entitled to get the allowance..heheheheheeh...so sort of converting the option....huhuhuh is it??? Am not willing to convert chemistry to English...I do LOVE chemistry....Just wait and see how this program will be done next 2012...huhuhuhuhh..sleepy....tired......so....off to bed earlier...lalalalala

Sessions ended for today:PUBLIC SPEAKING:

Sessions for the course ended at 4.30...almost 5...then off to Jabi with new colleagues just to have the taste of satay Jabi..ngeh3...so arrived at home around 6 something..the last session for this evening was Public Speaking.
I am not a good public speaker..but I had to participate the section...once I was given the mic...I did not know what to say...no idea at all...was not ready to say something...Everyone showed the face...variety face expressions..gestures during the session...hahaha boring i tot!!!
I was enjoying myself tru this course...tiring but beneficial!
Tomorrow will b started at 8.30 p.m...am planning to finish my literature handouts n the analysis..but now...my battery flatted already..need to recharge....not to push myself working for the extra time...sum up for the day:ok:...heheheeh till then...papai!

Improving the Proficiency...

SAlam....
Just finished 2 sessions for this morning..over all..everything was good for the teachers..but for some parts..just the usual things which are always done by teachers in class..The J.Us keep stressing on the situation in class..how to sress on important matters with suitable tone...n etc. So some parts could be described as boring...but the others were ok.
So now break for almost 2 hours...will be continued after 2.45 p.m with new session..n end at 4.30. Night session is canceled. Good news I think..hehehehehe.
Actually I quite enjoyed participating this course...good for improving the english proficiency...this is the 1st phase..there are 3 phases awaiting..for April n twice in July..This course in one of the way to 'Memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu Memperkukuhkan Bahasa Inggeris'..huhuhuhhuhu.This 'MBMMBI' will replace the PPSMI n begin on 2012...hurm...may be those non-option will have an advance....for attending this course..I hope so...but I do love to deal with molecular or even structural formulae compared to read the 'ntah apa2' essay....hurm people would blame the English teachers for producing 'the ntah apa2' essay...rite??? the words..'cgu yg xpandai mengajar' is very common to be heard. I don't mind what people wana talk or even blame...they won't stop...n they do not know how the situation...so just let them talk...until they stop their breathing.
Talking about proficiency...everyone will know..English teacher should be pro...to pronounce words correctly n with right phonetic..even we either choose to follow american or UK..it doesn't matter at all...as if the students learnt the lesson..n the teachers do the job very well. Some teachers or even TesL itself..sometime arguing about the pronunciation...but we do have the reference..Just refer to the IPA..International Phonetic Alphabet...then we can learn how to say this n that words...Everyone is having their rest time...am not going to sleep...just fill the free time to jot down something...to blabber..something here..Heheheheheehe..So am now surfing some knowledgeable items for the preparing...am now improving myself..InsyaAllah..there will come the time for me...back to student life....Gambate!!!!Chaiyyok!!!
So till then..I will be back after the sessions expired this evening..lalalalalalla...
Wsalam.

Perjalanan yang masih belum ke penghujung

Esok..masih ada tugas perlu diteruskan...perjalanan yang masih lagi belum sampai ke destinasi...persoalan yang masih belum terjawab....segalanya masih....dan masih di situ..tidak berganjak walau sejengkal...tunggulah sekiranya masih ada peluang n ruang untuk berbicara....pasti akhirnya nanti segalanya terjawab!
Semoga aku terus tabah.....semoga terus ikhlas berbakti.....kerana Allah!!!!
Amin!
Aku menunggu hari esok..dengan jutaan harapan..semoga esok adalah lebih baik dari semalam.....

Aduhai...

Salam...
Salam mesra...salam ukhuwwah...salam sejahtera...Aduhai sesak je rasa nafas...semput semacam..terkejar sana sini...langsaikan tugas tergalas...ada kalanya rasa xberdaya untuk teruskan..tapi semngat yg kuat berkobar2 perlu terus-terusan digilap...hidup mesti ada matlamat....pedulikan mereka2 yg bikin onar..memeningkan kepala..
Hari ni saja..macam2 hal..lucu pun ada....lawak pun ada....xlogik pun ada...Yang lucu???Apalagi mesti pasal anak murid yg buat lawak....Ada sorg student ni x ambil lagi exam English TOV form 4...so kebetulan ke stuff room..tengok2 dia leka duk jawab soalan..pastu dia tegur aku..teacher puas saya cari teacher pagi tadi tak jumpa...aku jawab la teacher ade je kat makmal bawah tu...dha tu bila nak jawab paper English ni?
Dia jawab..nanti jap xsiap lagi...
So aku turun ke maklamk n ambil soalan....n naik ke stuff room...aku pon hulurkan...kat bdk tu...
Teacher saya dah ada..ni tgh jawab soalan English la...
Aku:tadi saya tanya kenapa xgtau..aduhai..pelajar ku....kau bikin aku penat aje..dah le rushing nak ke Besut..last minute call utk attend course...weekend lak tu...xprofessional wat kije....call out for course..last minute bg surat/fax/call...kalo yg jauh di Marang...nak rush ke Besut....mcm dekat ke?????Apa la orang-orang berkenaan buat kerja ye..heran aku! Xkan la nk organize course ni baru plan semalam or pagi td????Mesti dah ada JK induk utk handle course ni kan?Ni bukn peringkat PPD ke...peringkat sekolah..ni Peringkat JPN...so??????Hurm kelemahan jelas tertonjol la...utk sektor akademik.bahasa???wallahua'lam...masing2 cgu bising2...yelah...hentam hantar surat kursus by fax....kul 11...kursusnya kul8.30 pg start....xlogik langsung!!!!Macam manusia ni hidup xde jadual n plan plak...suka2...dah le xleh ganti dgn orang lain...hadui..haru duniaku!!!
Pastu plak....bergurau xkena cara tadi..sorng hamba Allah dah kecik ati dgn aku..agaknya xnak kawan putus sahabat dah kot...hadui!!!!haru lagi duniaku....sakit kepalaku!!!!
Banyak je lagi nak menulis..tapi otak penat sgt dah nak perah idea....dada ni mcm sesak semacam jerk..pendam byk hal....huhuhhuhu..moga2 Allah permudah urusan saya selepas ini..amin!!

Terasing

sorry empunya VC ni ye..saya donlod...best je dgr....

Aku pelangi...

Ku selalu dihati,
Membuai rayumu,
Hiasi dunia sepimu.
Seukir senyuman dariku,
Menggegarkan mayamu,
Kau segalanya bagiku.
Takkan setia,
Takkan kembali,
Bawa dirimu dan tinggalkanku.
Buka matamu,
Lihatlah diriku,
Aku pelangi,
yang dinanti.
Ku sinar cahayamu,
Di saat indahmu,
Juga waktu resahmu.
Ku lukisan imagimu,
Kini kau membisu,
Setelah ku tiada.
Berharap bayangku pulang,
Nikamati tiadaku

It is wonderful..to b like rainbows...colorful...and sometimes difficult to see..unless after the rain...n the sun shines..n the reflection happens..huhuhhuhu..
7 colors...not shining but stay beautiful with its own style...the amazing from Him..to be enjoyed by His caliph..Perhaps I can be like dat...as wonderful as the rainbow...Actually...today my feeling just like joy over the moon...hahahaha..not at all..n not exactly like dat..but am not pretending to b good...just to tell that I am happy since this morning...and the classes proceed better than yesterday..Alhamdulillah..no more headache..at this moment..but still the BP at the low..level..huhuhhuhu hipotension..????Sort of...Hurm..7.40-4.00...rushing to get something for the gift..to be given away for tomorrow program..
I hate to b at one shop...selling the clothes..salegirl yg agak kurang ajar...muka masam mencuka...bila tanya buat muka masam..xjawab...then kau follow aku ke hulu ke hilir..time aku tanya..ko buat muka..aku tanya pasal kain..kalo tak tau...cakap je xtau..buat muka..makin buruk jadinya...aku ni customer..n nak beli barang...kena la entertain elok2...lastly aku kelaur xjadi nak beli barang...benci dgn sikap...perempuan jurujual tu...tu la orang MElayu..cara layan customer memng selalu teruk...kita tanya elok2...aku mmg regular customer kedai tu...tapi tokey tak de plak arini..so aku xkisah sgt la..budak tu pon xbiasa dgn aku..so aku lagi lah xbiasa dgn dia..tp aku xkisah la sebab aku mmg niat nk beli barang pon...tapi bila dah mcm tu layanan...bye bye je la...xrugi pon aku xbeli kat kedai tu..kedai sebelah ada lagi...lagi bagus service...ada ke bila kita tanya harga kain tu...jawab xjawab...pastu dah la xde rege kat situ..bila tanya..macam malas..mcm xnak berniaga..isk..benci tambah meluat n menyampah...pasni xnak dah aku beli kat kedai tu...bukan xnak tlg melayu..tapi melayu ni sendri create satu situasi yg membuatkan aku meluat...lagi pon kaloaku xbeli..may b ramai lagi customer lain beli kat kedai tu kot...mungkin la....huhuhhuhu...isk...ada2 je...mcm2 kerenah..
Hurm..students...hari ni..so far ok...walau pon ada girl sorng tu yg mmg aku rasa dia dah perangai mcm gitu...aku dah nak masuk kelas pon dia bleh lagi lepak tepi koridor borak2 dgn member dia..aku dah lalu depan mata dia..dia buat dono....hampeh!xde pon reaksi utk bergegas masuk sebelum aku masuk kelas..so...bila aku masuk lebih awal dr dia masuk....makanya...say good bye la to ur English class...bukan sekali dia buat hal...aku mcm dah malas nk layan muka dia...so aku buat dono jgk kat dia...until dia gtau nak kelaur lagi..so for the rest...aku kata...u may go n dont ever come to my class...dah selelu sgt dia tuang kelas p tido kat surau..kat bilik sakit..bukannya sekolah tu besar sgt pon....so...biarlah dia..drpd aku sakit hati...tgok muka dia...lagi bagus dia xde...dah memang selalu xde pon...dari last year aku peram...rasa hangin ni..so this year lantakla dia..aku rasa bkn aku sorng je ignore dia..cgu add math dia pon buat tak tau gak...huhuhhuhu...so??????biarlah dia....

Dulu lain..sekarang lagi...

Salam....
Entry kali ni just nak bercerita tentang kerja....maklumlah kerja deals dgn manusia ni kadang kala menyesakkan nafas...
Pagi-pagi lagi rasa macam semput..sebab...Guru Kanan Bahasa..arahkan kumpulkan pelajar form 3 n 5 selepas assembly..nak check yg xdtg kelas tambahan...hurm.aku bab2 ni yg lemah...paksa2 diorng pun..dah kalo diorg malas n xde motivasi...rotan puluh2 kali pon..mcm tu lah...so...aku ikut je lah...bila dah kumpul semua..asingkan mana yang dtg n xdtg..aku sekarang seolah-olah bergerak sorang diri dalam team SPM...PK1 dah pindah..tunggak utama...tu dah ke sekolah lain...byk meeting tergendala...S/U JKS pon pindah..tinggal aku terkontang-kanting...rasa nak terpelanting pon ada...rasa mcm berat nk carry semua benda sorang2...pengurusan pon satu...entahlah..hinggakan nak check kelas yg atap bocor pon ada ke panggil aku????????..Lemah betul semangat...
Ok..berbalik kisah denda ni...so asingkan pelajar2 yg xdatang kelas...kumpul tempat lain...yang menyakitkan hati...bg tau elok....duduk satu tempat..punyalah jauh hujung dunia dia kumpul geng2 dia..aku panggil..dtg dekat...berdiri depan tapak assembly..diorng wat2 xdgr....aduhai...last2 aku mcm give up nak layan kerenah macam2..ada yg biadab...ada yg kurang ajar...so aku diam n berdiri je...sambil gtau PK HEM..saya xlarat nak handle boys tu semua...tolong mana2 cgu lelaki take over...lastly cgu disiplin took over n rotan dak2 tu...aku hanya mampu tengok je..tu pun ada yang sempat larikan diri...aku dah xlarat nak layan kerenah semua ni...
Selalunya rasa sangat penat dengan perangai diorang ni..malas satu hal..kurang ajar...plak tu..cakap dgn cikgu macam cakap dgn geng dia..kalo kita wat tak tau..diam leh plak dia ngata..sombong cikgu..cikgu berlagak lah...kalo dilayan..lain jadinya...
Sesak nafas dgn kerenah students sekrang...
KALO NAK BANDINGKAN PELAJAR DULU...DGN SEKRANG..MEMANG JAUH LANGIT DENGAN BUMI....entahlah kenapa...tiba2 rasa macam give up..baru tahun ke-5....apa dah jadi ni....?????????Aku demotivated....lately..dengan tugas2 yg macam2...dah macam secretary...kerani pun ada...macam2...bukan merungut dgn tugas tapi hakikat yg kena lalui tetiap hari..Kalo dilayan kerenah pelajar2 ni...DARAH TINGGI la...jawabnya..erm tapi aku...bukan darah tinggi pon...BP aku rendah je sokmo2...entahla...hari ni check pon...rendah jugak..gitulah sokmo2...apa nak buat...xtau lah...selalu je mengeluh...bila fikirkan kerenah pelajar sekarang...macam2 hal...xterdaya nk fikir...susah rasanya nak menangani mereka..sama jugak kalo homework or assessment dalam kelas...ada yg xbuat...lngsung...bagi nota..mcm xbg nota...spoon feed pon malasnya tahap mahadewa...jugak...PENAT!
aku ada lebih kurang 30 tahun lagi nk hadapi fenomena nih...mampu ke???Tahun ke-5 macam dah fed up nih...apa kes nih??????waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........mana nak cari balik semangat yg hilang ni...walawei....dgn result SPM 09 yg agak merudum..prestasi subjek Kimia yg xberapa bgus...adui!!!Salah aku ke????@ kelas aku ngajar..1 kelas semua lulus..satu kelas lagi...14 org failed...n aku pon xmampu nk wat apa2 dr awal..sbb diorng mmg langsung xambil kisah...xmasuk kelas pon..so apa mampu aku buat??PEKA pon buat sebab kena paksa tahap dewa pnya..kena tunggu sorang2 buat..hadui!!!
Harap2 tahun ni xmcm tahun lepas..so far setakat ni...students 2010 ni nampk ok n respond lebih baik....ENGLISH???hurm..pelajar luar bandar...faham2 je lah...kalo masuk prong..preng..prong preng fully BI...alamatnya...mcm poyo plak le...ckp sorng2...syok sendiri..sudahnya..'teacher cakap melayu la teacher...xfaham'..hadui!
latihan?karangan?tak yah nak cerita...guided essay pon payah nak lengkap...apatah lagi continuous writing...summary pelbagai....objective pon xleh dapat full...hadui...bagi latihan...guide buat one by one...masih sama mcm tu...selalunya aku byk bebelkan mereka...bebelkan ttg sikap acuh x acuh..sikap malas...entahlah..anak melayu....semakin hari semakin mudah lupa asal usul...aku selalu ingatkan jgn nnt suatu hari dijajah lagi di bumi sendiri....tp apalah yg mereka mampu fikir..di usia 16-17 tahun ni kan....mungkin hanya buru keseronokan..dtg sekolah platform utk jumpa kawan2...bincang aktivit petang pas skolah nk wat apa...weekend nk g mana...tu je kot...homework..selebhinya..tolak tepi..aduh!!!!!
Sedih pilu hati seorang guru...kalo every year mcm ni...xde sorang cikgu pon yg doakan pelajar2nya gagal...semuanya nk tgok kejayaan...tapi mereka???impian mereka tu apa ye?????????Entahlah...huh panjang lebar membebel....sekadar luahan...manusia biasa...byk kelemahan...adakala dgn menulis...lega rasa di jiwa...jgn ada yg tersinggung sudahla...oklah...mata makin layu..badan penat yg amat...hari-hari 7.40-5.00.....balik rumah...masih ada yg belom selesai..tapi dah xberdaya nak sambung baut..rasa mcm mual tgok kertas2 menimbun membukit...huhuhuh...moga2 lepas ni aku akan terus tabah.....n sabar..amin!

open your eyes

Alhamdulillah...

Dian Sastro:
disaat waktu berhenti...kosong
dimensi membutakan mata,memekakkan telinga
lalu diri menjadi hampa
saat paradigma dunia tak lagi digunakan untuk menerka*
sadarku akan hadirmu,mematahkan sendi2 yang biasanya tegak berdiri

Yassin:
ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)

Malique:
merenungi luar jendela,mengagumi kebesaran yang Maha Esa
ku menilai kehidupan dari sudut berbeza
tak memadai hanya kecapi rasa selesa
maukan harta yang mampu beli 1 semesta
berpesta ke pagi botol bergelimpangan
kekasih muda bukan takat berpegang tangan
harta dan jamuan nafsu tidak berkekalan
bila menjelang tua bukan itu jadi bekalan
dan jangan puisi ini disalah tafsir pula
bukan berkhutbah cuma betuli diri jua
ingin hidup sempurna aset nilai berjuta,
saling tukar wanita,senyum dan mati tua
bakat dikurnia jangan disalah guna
jangan kufur nikmat yang diberi percuma
guna kelebihan untuk hikmah bersama
jagalah nama hidup penuh pementasan dan drama
ada berisi ada yang kurus,ada melencong ada yang lurus bukan semuanya tulus
ada sempuna ada kurang upaya ada yang jadi buta hanya bila sudah kaya
sebesar rumah bermula dengan sekecil bata,boleh hilang dalam sekelip mata
ucaplah alhamdulillah bukannya sukar, kerna semua nak kaya atau besar
tetap Allahuakbar!!!

Joe Flizzow:
jadikanlah ku tentera Fisabilillah yang tertera di kalimah harap memanduilah
entah apabila persimpangan tiba,hidup penuh rintangan harus kuhadapinya
harapku tidak terlupa diri bila gembira,dan cuma mula mencari kau disaat hiba
ku cuma manusia penuh dengan kesilapan tapi bisa membezakan cahaya dan kegelapan
tabah bila dihalangan duri onak dan cobaan
teguh bila dicobakan keruh kuasa dan perempuan
sentiasa legar diminda,dikejar dan dipinta dari zaman bermula hingga ke akhirnya
ku mengerti siapa ku tanpamu disisi dan apa guna posesi juga posisi
sementara ini cuma hanya puisi,nukilan tulisan dan bisikan isi hati
mencari keterangan,menjiwai peranan menepati pesanan janji juga saranan
alhamdulillah atas kurniaan rezeki,moga tidak terleka dalam perjalanan ini

Ahli Fiqir:
aku yang memandang di dalam lubuk hati,mencari-cari zat rahsia yang katanya tersembunyi
aku yang melihat alam meliputi wujud menyertai lalu ku pindahkan alam ke dalam mata hati
aku hakiki,aku mengerti segala yang terjadi di langit dan di bumi
gunanya tiada fantasi, pelik dan benar,qada' dan qadar kau berilah ku kekuatan
agar dapat ku hindarkan segala kesesatan
usah kau biar nafsuku terliur dari pandangan majazi ini,
aku yang hodoh lagi hina amat benar merindui
moga cahaya lailatul tak membutakan mataku,semoga segala puji tak ku meninggi diri
moga segala janji dapat juga ku penuhi,moga dapatku hadapi tikaman dari belakang
lidah setajam pisau, ku tidak akan risau dengan cabaran sepanjang perjalanan
ku pasrah ku akur 7,8,6 Alhamdulillah Syukur...

Dian Sastro:
sujudku pun takkan memuaskan inginku
'tuk hanturkan* sembah sedalam kalbu
adapun kusembahkan syukur padamu ya Allah
untuk nama,harta dan keluarga yang mencinta
dan perjalanan yang sejauh ini tertempa
alhamdulillah pilihan dan kesempatan
yang membuat hamba mengerti lebih baik makna diri
semua lebih berarti akan mudah dihayati
Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah....

Peluang

Ya Allah....terima kasih di atas segala peluang yang telah engkau berikan....dan semoga untuk seterusnya...peluang sentiasa terbuka untukku dan aku mampu menggunakannya dengan penuh yakin...amin!

My ride...before n now...

QUIT...STOP...or PROCEED but SUFFER....

Huhuhuhuhuh..apa lagi pagi2 buta merapu dengan ayat omputih tu....cik kak sorang nih...
Hurm...biasalah hidup ni banyak hal yang tak dijangka berlaku..and need us to make the decision...decision making is a quite difficult part for me....xpasti la orang lain mcm mn..but as muslim we do have the Helper...n ways to seek for the guide or hint...Yes..I do it all the time...hoping that someday I will find the way to move,,,on. But yet...still progressing it..the heaviest thing in my life...but it will be easier n lighter if I do not take it as a heavy thing...but it is not so that simple..right????
Well..I need to b more patient...keep on seeking for the hint....InsyaAllah....one day will find the best answer..God knows it better when it comes to happen...Hopefully..the next day will be more colorful as rainbow...amin!

Dimensi....

Salam...hurm tgh2 malam buta dah menghampiri pagi ni aku terpacak depan desktop ni...entah kenapa mata payah bebnor nk lelap padahal seharian drive ....tp xmau jugak lelap..
So aku mula la mencari topic utk create dlm blog aku ni...ok 1st of all..maaf kalo blog aku ter'link' ke email sapa2...or ke FB..kalo rasa srbaut korang xyah baca...senang cerita REMOVE sajalah...maklumlah...orang ni kadang2 tafsiran yg macam2....entah apa lah diorg fikir...wallahua'lam..agaknua orang2 ni fikir blog dia je yg ok...huhuhuhuh....aku no komen...xpernah pon aku komen lebih2 entry orng lain sebab aku masih mempunyai rasa HORMAT..pada tuan empunya blog...xapalah....negara demokrasi so sesaper berhak komen kan...
DIMENSI.....aku baru je terjumpa lirik lagu yg kena ngena dgn perkataan DIMENSI..ni...
Ku Kehilangan Cinta Tiga Dimensi

Biar dari sudut
Manapun kau lihat diri ini
Walaupun dari atas sekali
Semua adalah sama

Biarpun cantik mengalah bidadari
Namun hatiku tidak mungkin
Kau dapat menguasai

Tiada cinta tiga dimensi
Sesama kita lagi
Engkau hanyalah gurisan hati
Dilukis di atas bumi

Terpadam sudah pandangan yang indah
Yang engkau gambarkan
Di suatu ketika dahulu

Apa yang tinggal
Kini hanyalah satu dimensi
Apa yang tinggal kini hanyalah
Yang sulit dan sepi

kalo peratikan betul2 biasa je..tp kalo hayati..may be lain orang lain fahamannya..so pada aku..lagu ni agak la menyentuh sikit2 jiwa aku...kenapa ye ??Adakah aku dah mula berjiwang karat..owh tidak! Ada seorang hamba Allah..setiap kali aku jumpa dia...dia suka sgt nyanyi lagu ni....mula2 aku xamik kesah pon...nynayi la lagu apa ko nak nyanyi pon kan....tp kalo dah selalu sgt..aku cuak gak nghe3..so aku godek mr.google...jumpalah...hurm...salem n nash...aku xla agungkan diorng n jgk lagu ni..aku just nk try tgok mcm mn lriknya....so dgr kat youtube..sebelum ni pon dah selalu dgr hamba Allah tu nyanyi..pasang kat enpon dia/...kat lappy dia...so malam ni tergerk plak..hati nk godek..isi kandungan...erm...aku rasa mcm dah faham....so aku rasa aku dah dapat jawapan...so lepas ni xperlu nk tanya lagi....jawapan tu dah aku perolehi...



huhuhhuhuhu..itulh kishny.....moga2 aku lebih tabah untuk hari esok ye..Amin....mudah-mudahan Allah sentiasa rahmati aku dan semua orang....amin.

Kerdilnya.....di sisiNya

Assalamualaikum...wbt
Semoga sejahtera di mana sahaja berada....dirahmatiNya...sentiasa
Malam ni...tergerak hati utk up date blog usang ni...biar pun usang...ia tetap menarik di hati...xkisahla ada pengunjung atau tidak..ada pembaca atau tidak...
Kenapa title entry kali ni berkisarkan tentang kerdil....kisah si kerdil dgn snow white kah???owh...tidak....Aku selalu bayangkan yg diri ni teramat kerdil...serba daif..hidup pun meminjam...tapi sudah-sudahnya sentiasa juga alpa dgn tugas n tanggungjawab...sentiasa macam2 dgn itu n ini...tp sebenarnya segalanya adalah kerdil..miskin segala..aduhai...diri yang sering alpa...usahakanlah sesuatu yg lebih baik untuk menjadi lebih baik dari semalam...
MElihatkan pelbagai kisah suka duka berlaku di depan mata..sgt menginsafkan...melihatkan itu n ini yang berlaku tanpa dijangka pada bila-bila masa...membuatkan aku sayu..syahdu..pilu...Ya Allah...bimbinglah aku ke arah yg lebih baik..dekatkan aku..dgnMu sentiasa...Aku khalifah miskin segalanya...di sisiNya...
Muhasabahlah wahai dirku.....muhasabah....muhasabah....muhasabah.....

Holidays begin....

Salam....Salam Jumaat..penghulu segala hari...
Hurm....1st day of holidays....so about another 8 days to be spent....today just lepak2 kat rumah je....nothing much can do except layan game..layan anak-anak buah...2-3 orang ni...
Then..xtau dah plan apa lagi.....so esok kerja masih melambak yang setia menunggu....
apa2 je lah...janji buat kerana ikhlas....kerana ibadat..kerana Allah..moga2 dapat ganjaran yg lebih baik..amin.

SPM RESULT....A WORTHY COMPARED TO NOTHING...

Alhamdulillah....my effort for the 2009 paid even though not so good..but am satisfied with the result but still need to work harder....put much more effort ..speed up the velocity..so that the momentum resulted an effective collision later...huhuuhuhuh...need to add more catalyst to get the rate of reaction more faster...n the product is better...huhuhuhu...For this year I should use more chemistry theory in my job spec...so that it will parallel with my target...huhuhuhuhu...
Huhu what a long tiring day...playing with the numbers...figures for the whole day...lost emotion...kicking the thing around...just bcoz nobody understood my situation...so bad of me!!! Worse of the worst....I tried to be cool n good to everyone..but everyone were not trying to b good with me..keep pushing me...I know that what u r waiting for..but can't u see how am struggling myself with all those things????can't u b more considerate...at least let me finish n settle all the things then u will get what u want...u r not the one who is going to analyse all the thing even if I gave all the data earlier...in the end..all the analysis will be done by me..alone!!!!!!
I was acted weirdly...jus bcoc some of the idiot pushed me to be like this..put me into worse situation earlier...if u ease my job..then i will not be like this...am very sorry to act like this way...it was not my plan to b like this...pressure drove me crazy....am not good to handle my emotion...when it comes the pressure...i will lost...for a while...bcoz am doing it alone....
Anyway a highly appreciaiton to the help from all those good heart..willing to lend ur hand to easy me job..if not..again i will be more crazy..
Am damn tired of calculating this n that....sorting these n those....need a break for a moment....till the next time i need to continue for the analysis....before am setting off to somewhere....i have to complete all the tasks....then it will be better to enjoy myself..before the next task coming....cherish up my life.....lalalalalalalalalal....sorrow inside but have to keep it all....it just nothing compared to waiting task....letting it go...is the best way....am I???? InsyaAllah...i'm willing to do when it comes the right time..
So happy to c the happines faces in front of me this morning... the successful..with them...mde them happier..may Allah gives the best thing in ur life...my dear students...I love u all....eternally.....hehehhehehe cheerio!!

Entah apalah....kisahnya ini...

Salam....
dalam kebingungan...aku sempat nak godek blog usang ni....bersawang...lama tak up date..jarang-jarang mood untuk menulis segala kisah cerita...yang berlaku....tak terlarat untuk terus-terusan mencatat apa saja yang berlaku depan mata....penat rasanya...tapi itulah kisahnya yang entah apa-apa..adakala berlaku tanpa dijangka...adakalanya berlaku seperti yang dirancang..dan kadang kala berlaku tanpa diundang...letihnya dengan kerenah n ragam pelbagai ni...tapi itulah hakikat yang harus diterima...ibarat ditelan mati mak...diluah mati bapak...harusnya kesudahan bagaimana????
Tunggu sajalah...kita hanya mampu rancang segala macam..lakar pelbagai..tapi sudahnya belum pasti bagaimana...hanya Dia berhak meluluskan segalanya....waima projek berjuta2 ringgit...jika tanpa barakahNya..izinNya...xakan menjadi...segala apa..yang penting...DIA...rahmat Dia...ehsan Dia....
Entah apalah kisah seterusnya..pelbagai drama bakal diarahkan....pelakon yang pelbagai ragam n macam..pening kepala melihatkan gelagat yang bermacam ni....apa nak buat...entah apalah kisahnya lagi ye.....hehehehehehe....tunggu..............

THIS LIFE...

Salam.....
lamanya saya tidak menggodek blog saya ni....kesibukan yang melanda akhir-akhir ini..menyebabkan 'mood' untuk ber'blog' sedikit pudar...Apa-apa pun yang penting saya tidaklah langsung tidak menjenguk muka di page maya ini..tetapi agak buntu idea untuk bercerita..mungkin terlalu banyak cerita hinggakan saya sendiri merasakan tidak perlu untuk menulisnya di sini..cukuplah ia tertulis di dalam hati..saya..Wah! Apa kisahnya ni?Entahla..merapu agaknya di tgh malam...sambil-sambil menyiapkan minit-minit mesyuarat yang lalu..sambil-sambil berblog..penat betul dgn kehidupana hari ini...alangkah seronoknya jika dapat kembali ke zaman belajar...dahulu kala.
Tapi bila berada di zaman itu...terdetik pula untuk menjadi dewasa..bosan dgn kehidupan ketika itu..ah..fikiran budak-budak..manalah tahu untuk menilai bagaimana kehidupan seorang dewasa yang tugasnya n tanggungjawabnya lebih mencabar.
Hati berdebar-debar menanti hasil usaha kerja 2009...keputusan peperiksaan SPM bakal diumumkan xlama lagi...aduhai..gundah gulana rasanya hati...apalah rupanya khabarnya...
mudah-mudahan hasil kerja buat team SPM membuahkan hasil yang lebih baik..mudah-mudahan usaha kami berbaloi. Ini adalah sentuhan kerja saya yang pertama..bukanlah sepenuhnya..saya hanya bertindak sebagai penyelaras projek n program SPM..kami bekerja dalam satu kumpulan..Alhamdulillah teamwork utk tahun 2009 sangat membanggakan..dan terus digilap ke 2010. Tahun ini..kerjasama amatlah baik..alhamdulillah. tapi agak penat untuk menguruskan segala macam hal yang adakalanya tertenggek di bahu ini..tugasan orang-orang lain yang perlu saya bereskan..
penat mengendalikan segala macam tugas...tapi itulah kehidupan...pejam dan celik..bangun dengan pelbagai tugas menunggu...
sleep n dream...day n night...but not only to have fun..enjoy the moment in life..but to carry the never ending duty!

i-City Klang