Teacher's day is coming.................

Hehehehehe....talking about celebrating Teacher's day..it makes me smile..widely...ear to ear...hahahahahaha...this morning i was bust tidying my files n tables...then someone shouted at me...about the celebration on this Sinday...n told about the nomination that will be done on that day...I was the nominated as...
cikgu paling garang'....wakakakakakaka.....me..laughed out loudly...kah kah kah..ini mesti kije budak2 halus lower form..ekekekekekek..maklum le..aku suka bebeno  nyakat deme2 lower form..wat2 garang time selisih dgn diorng..ekekekeek....saja hialngkan boring....keh keh keh..
apa2 pun happy teacher's day to all teachers...

Converting...?

Today again I have to attend the English Proficiency Course...for another slots..3 days...included my weekend...OMG!!! But it doesn't matter at all..heheheheh I like!
Owh...main idea of this entry...is...'CONVERSION COURSE'.....what is going to be converted?
Well....I might be converted to another option...as told by a JPN officer....(I guessed)..those who attended this course..completely 4 phases....so she or he already converted to English option...huhuhuhu...His words sort of annoying me...which turned me on to ask the JU...'sir..what is the main purpose of this course?'Is it the conversion course?'
He said..'sort of.....'
Me:' My major option....?'
JU:'U will have both...chemistry n English...'
Owh................

Choc finger vanilla n pandan coffee...layer cake

Yuhuuuu..Salam...
Hari ni penuh n padat jadual saya....Dari pagi bermula kehidpuan saya skitar jam 6.30 pg sudah pun berada di atas jalan raya...kerana hujung minggu ini saya habiskan bersama anak-anak buah pengarang jantung yang nakal n petah...so sayang nak tinggalkan mereka...maka pagi2 buta la saya bertolak untuk ke tempat kerja...Ye saya bekerja di hujung minggu..mendidika mereka yang ingin belajar...walau pun agak kecewa apabila tiba di makmal.hanya 12 orang yang setia menunggu...xapalah...ajarlah selagi mereka berminat..n selagi kudrat yg ada ni mampu...
So...sempat siapkan rekod mengajar n hantar ke pejabat..kunci office ada dalam tangan saya ..heheheh pagi-pagi saya call pihak pengurusan...so sala seorang GK datang serhakan kepada saya...hahahahaha...Esok saya akan pulangkan....So..sempat saya submit RM...disebabkan hari Khamis saya M.C...alhamdulillah..dah lega kepala saya hari ni...hurm..hari ni habis kelas sekitar 12.30...saya siapkan sedikit kerja...on the way balik...sempat singgah di gerai ikan..mencari sedikit lauk..mentah...so dapatlah ikan kembong segar...n juga ikan cermin...masak tumis ...letak kacang bendi...sedap tu......so sampai kat rumah...saya mula selesiakan kerja-kerja house keeping...pergh.....penat sungguh....tp puas hati....
petang plak..saya godekkan dua bj kek....kek lapis jejari coklat n kek lapis kopi pandan....resepi asal saya ambil dr buku tulisan rabiah amit..pastu saya godek2 n ubah suai...hehehehehe....sebab ada bahan yg xde..so saya alter skit jd bleh guna bahan2 yg dah sedia ada..maka siaplah 2 bj kek tu....photo??..oooooooooooowh..nanti lepas ni lah saya letakkan...so..saya nk iron baju utk minggi ni..xde lah saya kelam kabut pagi2....hahah sememangnya saya agak kurang berdisiplin kalo bab2 pergi kerja....hahahahaha...saya sdg berusaha untuk berubah...ke arah yg lebih baik..lalalalalalalala...ok tadaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Relief...

Salam.....
Am home.....lalalalalalala....Wah! Great for todat's activities....everything went well....am satisfied!
Started this morning with the program...good job of me!....hurm am earlier for today to reach at work!...thanks God!..
Am oso feeling this way for the completed work...Done it this afternoon...just waiting for tomorrow...another chemistry paper...hopefully by Thursday am able to finish marking all 2 classes..
For today...am happy....La isla bonita...lalalalalalala...
Need to rest n relax..till then...tadaaaaaaaaaaa...

Alhamdulillah...

 Ada sapa2 nak resepi 'instant home mada corn porridge'......jom....
Jagung 14 biji (saya beli 14 biji)
Santan RM4 (harga kat kg saya..malas nak parut kelapa sendiri..heheh beli je yg dah siap kat kedai) - lebih kurang sebiji kelapa...kot
Daun pandan 2 helai
 Telur ayam 2 biji
Manisan (gula melaka@gula merah) nak letak gula pasir pon ok...
Garam secukup rasa...
Air...agak2lah

Godek..............
Masak jagung dgn air..nak bg empuk...(betul2 masak..)
then tambah santan
pastu masukkan garam...gula melaka or gula pasir..mana2 yg suka la
pastu masuk telur.....

Salam...Hurm lega...meeting hari ni ringkas n padat...Boss pun joined sekejap je...so everything finished at time..lalalalala.....thanks God!
Tinggal je lagi..nak buat head count yg tertangguh2....hinggakan penyelaras form 5 dah sebut nama dalam meeting...hahahahahaha...S/U projek naik nama!Wakakakaka...aku gelak kambing je lah....hihihihi..ok..ok..promised! PAling cepat esok kau hantar ye Madam Chua..(satu2nya guru berbangsa Cina di sekolah aku).
Hurm..kebetulan plak ada org dtg jual jagung....so dua plastik RM10...murah je kan?adala 14 biji dalam tu...so balik rumah aku godek2...maka terhasillah bubur jagung...lalalala...byk plak tu buat...macam nak kenduri je...hahahah..xpe2..dah agih ke kak ipar..n esok leh bawak ke sekolah...erm plan nak wat puding jagung...tp macam byk lagi kije..so postpone esok...wah...request geng2 makmal nak makan mii kari...erm...laksa penang...minggu ni mcm full..InsyaAllah geng...next week..la kita kenduri makan laksa n mi tu ye...Wah! Si hitamku dah sampai masa utk dihantar service..tapi belum ada kesempatan...full manjang!
Bila la dapat celah ni..nk CRK...rasa xbest plak...erm....hehehehehe...plan B!
Hik hik hik...Malam tadi betul2 rasa xlarat...sakit tekak...then sejuk kaki n tangan...then shivering...dunno y..so after having a PCM...(Uphamol)...slept...then around 3 a.m awaken..felt much better..alhamdulillah.
For tonight...I need to prepare everything earlier..tomorrow I have to handle the Reading Program...my turn..thankx God..I've done the material..jgn la lewat esok pagi...huhuhuhuh..susah tul nak awal ke tempat kerja!!! Siap awal..ada je benda yg dilengah2kan..hadui!!!!! Minta2 esok aku awal.....Amin!heheehhe...
So...summary for today...I feel GOOD!!!!! Yeaha!!!

Course..

Salam....
These few days...seen...so many things...n sometime felt sad..with these worse situation happens between us..
Why they use to argue amongst them??? In the midst of harmony...peaceful why people created something worse...is it to worsen the peacefully life we have right now?
Fighting...fighting..n fighting...here said they are good n right..there said they are damn2 good compared to others...Come on...if u r the best..then please show the best part of yours...show the right n correct...which is synchronize to ur words as well lah..but...everyone when it goes to speech...I think they r very good enough..but to implement the words to work....hurm...normally...things turn to opposite...words come to action...never matched well...as what I seen before...
So...there is nothing much to complaint...or comment..am on my way on the right track doing my job as well as I can...help the others as good as I can...am avoiding much speech...but am practicing more effective work....action speaks louder than word...that's better...if too much talking...just like a chatter's box...work will never be good...the out put will never b as we planned..so let's work with peace...use rational mind n thought...so that...we will be a person who has a vision...talking too much...brings nothing at the end. Just prove what u have said...showed it that words n work...at the same track..
Hurm..today's activity...is nothing much different...attended the Curriculum Pedagogy Course...speaker from JPNT...something good gained....clear information of TOV, OTI, ETR n etc...these terms use in evaluating students' performance..I think many of us misunderstood with these words...hahahaahah..So credits go to Mr. Razali from JPNT..
Afternoon....?I got some problems with my Samsung lappy...which belongs to my school..but left it already at the proper place...since that am doing my work using my own lappy...huhuhuhuh...Prefer to do official work with dat Samsung..but since something wrong with it...just use m own...even afraid of getting the virus attack!!! huhuhuhuh...the pen drive itself...would bring harm...huhuhuhuhu..hadui!
I need to go....now..no more idea..to write...initially..berkobar2 to write something..but stuck in the middle...so till then....babai!

Exciting...

Salam....
Nothing much to share..just a simple story about work....work is never ending...
Hurmm....the 1st day of the week....(am in east coast so week starts with Sunday)..
Everything was good enough..with the classes...enjoyable...n excitement..teaching them today...May be my mmog was so so so so..good...hahahaahah...so after having the course last weekend...tot that it work...coz I tried to use the knowledge that I'd learn to my students..n they seem like it...hurm..so..for the next I think I can use it again...but hopefully the stay firm with it....not only excited for today...huhuhuhu...Extra classes..went well...n now am home..tonight another extra class to be handled..am I going??Perhaps so...heheheheeheh...But the material is not yet done...
Hurm...items to b discussed during meeting...this Wednesday still pending for the action...I need to work on it..if not..boss will shout out for something..hahahaha...
Thanks for the management team for the quick n short meeting for the shortage happened especially for SPM classes..after matter had arisen to my boss this morning..we all together had a meeting to solve it., n felt better after the discussion. Owh..this Tuesday am taking leave...there was not a big problem with my boss..tadaaaaaaaaa...a good employee...doesn't have any problem with the boss.right?ngeh3......I had an official thing to do...am not simply to skip for work....huhuhu am not such that type person....n not oso a hardworking person..wakakakaa...
Hurm...hopefully am enjoying this whole week....God blessing me....amin!!!!
Ok..need to break...for doing some other waiting work...tada!

1st phase English Proficiency Course

Alhamdulillah...the course ended as well as planned...Today's sessions quite exciting...we had poems reciting...singing..n etc...So awaiting for the next phase on April...but everybody hoped that to b done during weekdays...not anymore during weekend...For me myself...it doesn't matter at all at any time...
Feel so exhausted...since non-stop driving this weekend...very2 tiring..next phase planned to stay there..but the accommodation is not too good...but just ok.
If staying there...had some more time to spend with new colleagues..hehehehe..over all my new friends were so good n friendly...
Hurm telling about today's session...one part is about idiomatic expression...n phrasal verbs...wonderful...! My E72 helps me much!!! The dictionary in the application of E72 is very useful!! And everyone asked me about that gadget.. everyone has the hand phone and I believe that each h/phone has the same function....but might b they never explore it...so at least i shared some useful information with them....
Thanks my E72...no need to buy a new electronic dictionary after all...hehehehe
Hurm what is the purpose of attending this course??????? I have been informed that...those attended will get the certificate which is useful during 2012 when the implementation of MBMMBI...replaceing the PPSMI...so those who want to know more..please log on to Moe website...alright..those non-option (English) who got this certificate are qualified to teach English n entitled to get the allowance..heheheheheeh...so sort of converting the option....huhuhuh is it??? Am not willing to convert chemistry to English...I do LOVE chemistry....Just wait and see how this program will be done next 2012...huhuhuhuhh..sleepy....tired......so....off to bed earlier...lalalalala

Sessions ended for today:PUBLIC SPEAKING:

Sessions for the course ended at 4.30...almost 5...then off to Jabi with new colleagues just to have the taste of satay Jabi..ngeh3...so arrived at home around 6 something..the last session for this evening was Public Speaking.
I am not a good public speaker..but I had to participate the section...once I was given the mic...I did not know what to say...no idea at all...was not ready to say something...Everyone showed the face...variety face expressions..gestures during the session...hahaha boring i tot!!!
I was enjoying myself tru this course...tiring but beneficial!
Tomorrow will b started at 8.30 p.m...am planning to finish my literature handouts n the analysis..but now...my battery flatted already..need to recharge....not to push myself working for the extra time...sum up for the day:ok:...heheheeh till then...papai!

Improving the Proficiency...

SAlam....
Just finished 2 sessions for this morning..over all..everything was good for the teachers..but for some parts..just the usual things which are always done by teachers in class..The J.Us keep stressing on the situation in class..how to sress on important matters with suitable tone...n etc. So some parts could be described as boring...but the others were ok.
So now break for almost 2 hours...will be continued after 2.45 p.m with new session..n end at 4.30. Night session is canceled. Good news I think..hehehehehe.
Actually I quite enjoyed participating this course...good for improving the english proficiency...this is the 1st phase..there are 3 phases awaiting..for April n twice in July..This course in one of the way to 'Memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu Memperkukuhkan Bahasa Inggeris'..huhuhuhhuhu.This 'MBMMBI' will replace the PPSMI n begin on 2012...hurm...may be those non-option will have an advance....for attending this course..I hope so...but I do love to deal with molecular or even structural formulae compared to read the 'ntah apa2' essay....hurm people would blame the English teachers for producing 'the ntah apa2' essay...rite??? the words..'cgu yg xpandai mengajar' is very common to be heard. I don't mind what people wana talk or even blame...they won't stop...n they do not know how the situation...so just let them talk...until they stop their breathing.
Talking about proficiency...everyone will know..English teacher should be pro...to pronounce words correctly n with right phonetic..even we either choose to follow american or UK..it doesn't matter at all...as if the students learnt the lesson..n the teachers do the job very well. Some teachers or even TesL itself..sometime arguing about the pronunciation...but we do have the reference..Just refer to the IPA..International Phonetic Alphabet...then we can learn how to say this n that words...Everyone is having their rest time...am not going to sleep...just fill the free time to jot down something...to blabber..something here..Heheheheheehe..So am now surfing some knowledgeable items for the preparing...am now improving myself..InsyaAllah..there will come the time for me...back to student life....Gambate!!!!Chaiyyok!!!
So till then..I will be back after the sessions expired this evening..lalalalalalla...
Wsalam.

Aduhai...

Salam...
Salam mesra...salam ukhuwwah...salam sejahtera...Aduhai sesak je rasa nafas...semput semacam..terkejar sana sini...langsaikan tugas tergalas...ada kalanya rasa xberdaya untuk teruskan..tapi semngat yg kuat berkobar2 perlu terus-terusan digilap...hidup mesti ada matlamat....pedulikan mereka2 yg bikin onar..memeningkan kepala..
Hari ni saja..macam2 hal..lucu pun ada....lawak pun ada....xlogik pun ada...Yang lucu???Apalagi mesti pasal anak murid yg buat lawak....Ada sorg student ni x ambil lagi exam English TOV form 4...so kebetulan ke stuff room..tengok2 dia leka duk jawab soalan..pastu dia tegur aku..teacher puas saya cari teacher pagi tadi tak jumpa...aku jawab la teacher ade je kat makmal bawah tu...dha tu bila nak jawab paper English ni?
Dia jawab..nanti jap xsiap lagi...
So aku turun ke maklamk n ambil soalan....n naik ke stuff room...aku pon hulurkan...kat bdk tu...
Teacher saya dah ada..ni tgh jawab soalan English la...
Aku:tadi saya tanya kenapa xgtau..aduhai..pelajar ku....kau bikin aku penat aje..dah le rushing nak ke Besut..last minute call utk attend course...weekend lak tu...xprofessional wat kije....call out for course..last minute bg surat/fax/call...kalo yg jauh di Marang...nak rush ke Besut....mcm dekat ke?????Apa la orang-orang berkenaan buat kerja ye..heran aku! Xkan la nk organize course ni baru plan semalam or pagi td????Mesti dah ada JK induk utk handle course ni kan?Ni bukn peringkat PPD ke...peringkat sekolah..ni Peringkat JPN...so??????Hurm kelemahan jelas tertonjol la...utk sektor akademik.bahasa???wallahua'lam...masing2 cgu bising2...yelah...hentam hantar surat kursus by fax....kul 11...kursusnya kul8.30 pg start....xlogik langsung!!!!Macam manusia ni hidup xde jadual n plan plak...suka2...dah le xleh ganti dgn orang lain...hadui..haru duniaku!!!
Pastu plak....bergurau xkena cara tadi..sorng hamba Allah dah kecik ati dgn aku..agaknya xnak kawan putus sahabat dah kot...hadui!!!!haru lagi duniaku....sakit kepalaku!!!!
Banyak je lagi nak menulis..tapi otak penat sgt dah nak perah idea....dada ni mcm sesak semacam jerk..pendam byk hal....huhuhhuhu..moga2 Allah permudah urusan saya selepas ini..amin!!

Aku pelangi...

Ku selalu dihati,
Membuai rayumu,
Hiasi dunia sepimu.
Seukir senyuman dariku,
Menggegarkan mayamu,
Kau segalanya bagiku.
Takkan setia,
Takkan kembali,
Bawa dirimu dan tinggalkanku.
Buka matamu,
Lihatlah diriku,
Aku pelangi,
yang dinanti.
Ku sinar cahayamu,
Di saat indahmu,
Juga waktu resahmu.
Ku lukisan imagimu,
Kini kau membisu,
Setelah ku tiada.
Berharap bayangku pulang,
Nikamati tiadaku

It is wonderful..to b like rainbows...colorful...and sometimes difficult to see..unless after the rain...n the sun shines..n the reflection happens..huhuhhuhu..
7 colors...not shining but stay beautiful with its own style...the amazing from Him..to be enjoyed by His caliph..Perhaps I can be like dat...as wonderful as the rainbow...Actually...today my feeling just like joy over the moon...hahahaha..not at all..n not exactly like dat..but am not pretending to b good...just to tell that I am happy since this morning...and the classes proceed better than yesterday..Alhamdulillah..no more headache..at this moment..but still the BP at the low..level..huhuhhuhu hipotension..????Sort of...Hurm..7.40-4.00...rushing to get something for the gift..to be given away for tomorrow program..
I hate to b at one shop...selling the clothes..salegirl yg agak kurang ajar...muka masam mencuka...bila tanya buat muka masam..xjawab...then kau follow aku ke hulu ke hilir..time aku tanya..ko buat muka..aku tanya pasal kain..kalo tak tau...cakap je xtau..buat muka..makin buruk jadinya...aku ni customer..n nak beli barang...kena la entertain elok2...lastly aku kelaur xjadi nak beli barang...benci dgn sikap...perempuan jurujual tu...tu la orang MElayu..cara layan customer memng selalu teruk...kita tanya elok2...aku mmg regular customer kedai tu...tapi tokey tak de plak arini..so aku xkisah sgt la..budak tu pon xbiasa dgn aku..so aku lagi lah xbiasa dgn dia..tp aku xkisah la sebab aku mmg niat nk beli barang pon...tapi bila dah mcm tu layanan...bye bye je la...xrugi pon aku xbeli kat kedai tu..kedai sebelah ada lagi...lagi bagus service...ada ke bila kita tanya harga kain tu...jawab xjawab...pastu dah la xde rege kat situ..bila tanya..macam malas..mcm xnak berniaga..isk..benci tambah meluat n menyampah...pasni xnak dah aku beli kat kedai tu...bukan xnak tlg melayu..tapi melayu ni sendri create satu situasi yg membuatkan aku meluat...lagi pon kaloaku xbeli..may b ramai lagi customer lain beli kat kedai tu kot...mungkin la....huhuhhuhu...isk...ada2 je...mcm2 kerenah..
Hurm..students...hari ni..so far ok...walau pon ada girl sorng tu yg mmg aku rasa dia dah perangai mcm gitu...aku dah nak masuk kelas pon dia bleh lagi lepak tepi koridor borak2 dgn member dia..aku dah lalu depan mata dia..dia buat dono....hampeh!xde pon reaksi utk bergegas masuk sebelum aku masuk kelas..so...bila aku masuk lebih awal dr dia masuk....makanya...say good bye la to ur English class...bukan sekali dia buat hal...aku mcm dah malas nk layan muka dia...so aku buat dono jgk kat dia...until dia gtau nak kelaur lagi..so for the rest...aku kata...u may go n dont ever come to my class...dah selelu sgt dia tuang kelas p tido kat surau..kat bilik sakit..bukannya sekolah tu besar sgt pon....so...biarlah dia..drpd aku sakit hati...tgok muka dia...lagi bagus dia xde...dah memang selalu xde pon...dari last year aku peram...rasa hangin ni..so this year lantakla dia..aku rasa bkn aku sorng je ignore dia..cgu add math dia pon buat tak tau gak...huhuhhuhu...so??????biarlah dia....

Dulu lain..sekarang lagi...

Salam....
Entry kali ni just nak bercerita tentang kerja....maklumlah kerja deals dgn manusia ni kadang kala menyesakkan nafas...
Pagi-pagi lagi rasa macam semput..sebab...Guru Kanan Bahasa..arahkan kumpulkan pelajar form 3 n 5 selepas assembly..nak check yg xdtg kelas tambahan...hurm.aku bab2 ni yg lemah...paksa2 diorng pun..dah kalo diorg malas n xde motivasi...rotan puluh2 kali pon..mcm tu lah...so...aku ikut je lah...bila dah kumpul semua..asingkan mana yang dtg n xdtg..aku sekarang seolah-olah bergerak sorang diri dalam team SPM...PK1 dah pindah..tunggak utama...tu dah ke sekolah lain...byk meeting tergendala...S/U JKS pon pindah..tinggal aku terkontang-kanting...rasa nak terpelanting pon ada...rasa mcm berat nk carry semua benda sorang2...pengurusan pon satu...entahlah..hinggakan nak check kelas yg atap bocor pon ada ke panggil aku????????..Lemah betul semangat...
Ok..berbalik kisah denda ni...so asingkan pelajar2 yg xdatang kelas...kumpul tempat lain...yang menyakitkan hati...bg tau elok....duduk satu tempat..punyalah jauh hujung dunia dia kumpul geng2 dia..aku panggil..dtg dekat...berdiri depan tapak assembly..diorng wat2 xdgr....aduhai...last2 aku mcm give up nak layan kerenah macam2..ada yg biadab...ada yg kurang ajar...so aku diam n berdiri je...sambil gtau PK HEM..saya xlarat nak handle boys tu semua...tolong mana2 cgu lelaki take over...lastly cgu disiplin took over n rotan dak2 tu...aku hanya mampu tengok je..tu pun ada yang sempat larikan diri...aku dah xlarat nak layan kerenah semua ni...
Selalunya rasa sangat penat dengan perangai diorang ni..malas satu hal..kurang ajar...plak tu..cakap dgn cikgu macam cakap dgn geng dia..kalo kita wat tak tau..diam leh plak dia ngata..sombong cikgu..cikgu berlagak lah...kalo dilayan..lain jadinya...
Sesak nafas dgn kerenah students sekrang...
KALO NAK BANDINGKAN PELAJAR DULU...DGN SEKRANG..MEMANG JAUH LANGIT DENGAN BUMI....entahlah kenapa...tiba2 rasa macam give up..baru tahun ke-5....apa dah jadi ni....?????????Aku demotivated....lately..dengan tugas2 yg macam2...dah macam secretary...kerani pun ada...macam2...bukan merungut dgn tugas tapi hakikat yg kena lalui tetiap hari..Kalo dilayan kerenah pelajar2 ni...DARAH TINGGI la...jawabnya..erm tapi aku...bukan darah tinggi pon...BP aku rendah je sokmo2...entahla...hari ni check pon...rendah jugak..gitulah sokmo2...apa nak buat...xtau lah...selalu je mengeluh...bila fikirkan kerenah pelajar sekarang...macam2 hal...xterdaya nk fikir...susah rasanya nak menangani mereka..sama jugak kalo homework or assessment dalam kelas...ada yg xbuat...lngsung...bagi nota..mcm xbg nota...spoon feed pon malasnya tahap mahadewa...jugak...PENAT!
aku ada lebih kurang 30 tahun lagi nk hadapi fenomena nih...mampu ke???Tahun ke-5 macam dah fed up nih...apa kes nih??????waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........mana nak cari balik semangat yg hilang ni...walawei....dgn result SPM 09 yg agak merudum..prestasi subjek Kimia yg xberapa bgus...adui!!!Salah aku ke????@ kelas aku ngajar..1 kelas semua lulus..satu kelas lagi...14 org failed...n aku pon xmampu nk wat apa2 dr awal..sbb diorng mmg langsung xambil kisah...xmasuk kelas pon..so apa mampu aku buat??PEKA pon buat sebab kena paksa tahap dewa pnya..kena tunggu sorang2 buat..hadui!!!
Harap2 tahun ni xmcm tahun lepas..so far setakat ni...students 2010 ni nampk ok n respond lebih baik....ENGLISH???hurm..pelajar luar bandar...faham2 je lah...kalo masuk prong..preng..prong preng fully BI...alamatnya...mcm poyo plak le...ckp sorng2...syok sendiri..sudahnya..'teacher cakap melayu la teacher...xfaham'..hadui!
latihan?karangan?tak yah nak cerita...guided essay pon payah nak lengkap...apatah lagi continuous writing...summary pelbagai....objective pon xleh dapat full...hadui...bagi latihan...guide buat one by one...masih sama mcm tu...selalunya aku byk bebelkan mereka...bebelkan ttg sikap acuh x acuh..sikap malas...entahlah..anak melayu....semakin hari semakin mudah lupa asal usul...aku selalu ingatkan jgn nnt suatu hari dijajah lagi di bumi sendiri....tp apalah yg mereka mampu fikir..di usia 16-17 tahun ni kan....mungkin hanya buru keseronokan..dtg sekolah platform utk jumpa kawan2...bincang aktivit petang pas skolah nk wat apa...weekend nk g mana...tu je kot...homework..selebhinya..tolak tepi..aduh!!!!!
Sedih pilu hati seorang guru...kalo every year mcm ni...xde sorang cikgu pon yg doakan pelajar2nya gagal...semuanya nk tgok kejayaan...tapi mereka???impian mereka tu apa ye?????????Entahlah...huh panjang lebar membebel....sekadar luahan...manusia biasa...byk kelemahan...adakala dgn menulis...lega rasa di jiwa...jgn ada yg tersinggung sudahla...oklah...mata makin layu..badan penat yg amat...hari-hari 7.40-5.00.....balik rumah...masih ada yg belom selesai..tapi dah xberdaya nak sambung baut..rasa mcm mual tgok kertas2 menimbun membukit...huhuhuh...moga2 lepas ni aku akan terus tabah.....n sabar..amin!

SPM RESULT....A WORTHY COMPARED TO NOTHING...

Alhamdulillah....my effort for the 2009 paid even though not so good..but am satisfied with the result but still need to work harder....put much more effort ..speed up the velocity..so that the momentum resulted an effective collision later...huhuuhuhuh...need to add more catalyst to get the rate of reaction more faster...n the product is better...huhuhuhu...For this year I should use more chemistry theory in my job spec...so that it will parallel with my target...huhuhuhuhu...
Huhu what a long tiring day...playing with the numbers...figures for the whole day...lost emotion...kicking the thing around...just bcoz nobody understood my situation...so bad of me!!! Worse of the worst....I tried to be cool n good to everyone..but everyone were not trying to b good with me..keep pushing me...I know that what u r waiting for..but can't u see how am struggling myself with all those things????can't u b more considerate...at least let me finish n settle all the things then u will get what u want...u r not the one who is going to analyse all the thing even if I gave all the data earlier...in the end..all the analysis will be done by me..alone!!!!!!
I was acted weirdly...jus bcoc some of the idiot pushed me to be like this..put me into worse situation earlier...if u ease my job..then i will not be like this...am very sorry to act like this way...it was not my plan to b like this...pressure drove me crazy....am not good to handle my emotion...when it comes the pressure...i will lost...for a while...bcoz am doing it alone....
Anyway a highly appreciaiton to the help from all those good heart..willing to lend ur hand to easy me job..if not..again i will be more crazy..
Am damn tired of calculating this n that....sorting these n those....need a break for a moment....till the next time i need to continue for the analysis....before am setting off to somewhere....i have to complete all the tasks....then it will be better to enjoy myself..before the next task coming....cherish up my life.....lalalalalalalalalal....sorrow inside but have to keep it all....it just nothing compared to waiting task....letting it go...is the best way....am I???? InsyaAllah...i'm willing to do when it comes the right time..
So happy to c the happines faces in front of me this morning... the successful..with them...mde them happier..may Allah gives the best thing in ur life...my dear students...I love u all....eternally.....hehehhehehe cheerio!!

THIS LIFE...

Salam.....
lamanya saya tidak menggodek blog saya ni....kesibukan yang melanda akhir-akhir ini..menyebabkan 'mood' untuk ber'blog' sedikit pudar...Apa-apa pun yang penting saya tidaklah langsung tidak menjenguk muka di page maya ini..tetapi agak buntu idea untuk bercerita..mungkin terlalu banyak cerita hinggakan saya sendiri merasakan tidak perlu untuk menulisnya di sini..cukuplah ia tertulis di dalam hati..saya..Wah! Apa kisahnya ni?Entahla..merapu agaknya di tgh malam...sambil-sambil menyiapkan minit-minit mesyuarat yang lalu..sambil-sambil berblog..penat betul dgn kehidupana hari ini...alangkah seronoknya jika dapat kembali ke zaman belajar...dahulu kala.
Tapi bila berada di zaman itu...terdetik pula untuk menjadi dewasa..bosan dgn kehidupan ketika itu..ah..fikiran budak-budak..manalah tahu untuk menilai bagaimana kehidupan seorang dewasa yang tugasnya n tanggungjawabnya lebih mencabar.
Hati berdebar-debar menanti hasil usaha kerja 2009...keputusan peperiksaan SPM bakal diumumkan xlama lagi...aduhai..gundah gulana rasanya hati...apalah rupanya khabarnya...
mudah-mudahan hasil kerja buat team SPM membuahkan hasil yang lebih baik..mudah-mudahan usaha kami berbaloi. Ini adalah sentuhan kerja saya yang pertama..bukanlah sepenuhnya..saya hanya bertindak sebagai penyelaras projek n program SPM..kami bekerja dalam satu kumpulan..Alhamdulillah teamwork utk tahun 2009 sangat membanggakan..dan terus digilap ke 2010. Tahun ini..kerjasama amatlah baik..alhamdulillah. tapi agak penat untuk menguruskan segala macam hal yang adakalanya tertenggek di bahu ini..tugasan orang-orang lain yang perlu saya bereskan..
penat mengendalikan segala macam tugas...tapi itulah kehidupan...pejam dan celik..bangun dengan pelbagai tugas menunggu...
sleep n dream...day n night...but not only to have fun..enjoy the moment in life..but to carry the never ending duty!

My busy days...............

Lately...quite busy with a lot of things to be completed...but always...unfinished!
This thing is done....that thing is pending...then the additional for another awaiting job...this job in progressing...then comes another job...sometime....other person should do it...but the people put it on my shoulder...
Hurm...life is just like that..sometime unfair...but when we did
something good..people will just ignore it...but when thing goes wrong...they simply accused our fault...unfair!!!!
Whatever it is....it is just a life...which should go on...n on...n on without any compromise...whether right or wrong...thing is just the same if keep blabbering..muttering...these n those...just accept the things....learn for the experience...n for the better future...undertakings.. GOOD LUCK!!!!heheheh

Geram...sedih...nak marah....tapi...

Hari ni....betul2 mencabar kewibawaan sebagai seorng cikgu..guru..pendidik...
Apa taknya...pelajar saya curi@ambil skema pemarkahan kimia....ntah mcm mana bleh terlepas...nasib baik saya sempat terlintas....untuk cari skima tu....exam paper kimia dah pon lepas...hari semalam...tp budak ni xdtg semalam..so pagi ni dia dtg jumpa kat makmak nk exam....so saya bg la....mula2 saya bg dua2 paper..p1 n p2..tp diorg nk jwb p1 dulu..so oklah..saya suruh diorg jawab kat dalam makmal sebelah....saya tinggalkan sebab ada kelas..lagipun bz uruskan untuk meeting ptg td...
Bila habis kelas dgn 4 bestari..saya bergegas ke makmal...sempat tinjau2...so saya fkir dah siap la p1..tp pegi2...dia kata xtanda lgi...so saya biarkan aja..pastu hati rasa semcm..n tringtkan skema...puas saya cari atas meja...xde..tanya cikgu2 yg ada..pon xde...pastu cikgu yg sorng ni pegi kat budak tu...tanya..mula2 dia mcm nk elak..jawab mcm2...then cgu tu ternampak..apalagi....huhuhuh.Geramnya saya!!!Bila saya tanya..dia kata cikgu tu bg skali dgn kertas p2....ade ke plak! Hurm bila je cgu tu tahu budak tu gunakan nama dia..apa lagi..PENAMPAR FREE la...cakap berbelit2..sudahnya..saya terkilan ..kecewa n xnak cakap byk..saya minta dia buat semula...tp rasanya mm nk bg 0 utk p1 n p2....menipu!!!!
Entah mcm mana dia leh jumpa skema tu..padahal saya dah sorok!!!!!GERAMNNYA!!!!

Life....

Salam....
Baru je selesai baca surah Yaasin....alhamdulillah.....semoga kali ni ibadatku dilipat gandakan....pahalanya...juga buat semua muslimin muslimat...semoga kerja amal kalian...diberikan ganjaran tak ternilai olehNya..
Hari ini agak padat dgn tugas2 di sekolah..bermula dri pagi..seperti biasa..boss memang akan sentiasa mencari aku utk segala macam urusan...termasuk berjumpa ibu bapa yg hadir..wakil bg pihak boss...aku jd spoke-person..kot...tapi byk pengajaran yg membuatkan aku...bersyukur sgt2 dgn apa yg aku dapat...apa yg aku ada hari ni...pak cik-pak cik yg dtg....terima kasih atas kerjasama..insyaAllah..segala yg terbaik akan saya lakukan utk anak2 kalian....tak terdaya utk aku karang di sini segala kisah yg berlaku..yg byk mengajar aku ttg hakikat kehidupan..hakikat kasih ayah n ibu...satu rahsia yg tdk terungkai...
dan ptg ni juga..aku ke SMKA Tok Jiring...menjemput anak buah aku form 1...balik dr asrama...100% berubah...tp yg masih kekal...musalla....lama jgk aku di situ sementara menunggu anak buah aku pakcing barang2....aku sempat menghayati...kawasan2 yg masih ada...byk perubahan...bangunan konkrit gah teguh berdiri...tp apa jua perubahan...aku masih menghargai segala jasa selama berada di situ...
Ptg ni jugak..aku terima berita tentang kematian bekas pelajar...aku yg sedang menunggu result SPM...apa yg betul menyentap kesdihan aku....semasa hayat..arwah seorg pelajar yg baik...disenangi guru2 n rakan di sendiri...sememangnya Allah lebih sayangkan dia..berbanding kita...semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat...ditempatkan bersamam orang2 beriman..beramal soleh...al-fatihah....
Esok aku akan bergeas ke rumahnya...sebagai tanda prihatin n sumbangan terakhir aku utknya....sesungguhnya aku sentiasa doakan yg terbaik buat pelajar2 ku....

hahahaha...

Hari ni gelak je manjang..apa taknya....kerenah students ni yg macam2....last periods..before balik...dah habis semua sesi P&P...diorg dah siap wat kije....teacher pn dah siap mark....so..borak2...about 15mins to leave...datang la sorang student...teacher..ni hasil kije Fahmy...(budak ni xdtg sekolah hari ni, kalo dtg..mulut mcm bertih jagung)...nak tau apa?
replika motosikal...hasil cantuman kertas yg digulung2...dilekatkan guna sellotape..pastu pen yg xguna..tutup botol air mineral...complete lah motor tu dia buat...xleh tahan tgok...tergelak besar aku dalam kelas tu..tot nak snap pic..tp mcm malu lak kat budak2..tu..nnt esok kalo ada lagi benda alah tu aku paste kt sini...alahai Famhy....lucu tol kalo tgok benda tu....hhuhuhuhu...
Ptg td latihan merentas desa...aku???Sempat tertido dalam bilik semayang kat makmak..bangun2 dah kul 4...lengang dah...semua dah balik..budak2 agaknya merentas desa terus ke rumah..aku AJK Peronda KEselamatan..meronda dalam mimpi.heheheh Sabtu ni sekolah...merentas desa peringkat sekolah...hehehhe...best2...Hurm....penat tol hari ni.....

So heavy...

Am having a heavy headache...'migraine is coming'...too hot...here...additional..my room it too hot during afternoon to evening...sun shines tru my window...just like heating in my own oven....
Schooling??? Everything is ok...handled classes very well..since the SPMs' are having their TOV...what to do for today? I dunno....still have pending task to be continued..later will do it..since migraine is now attacking me so much...I can't stand to think for any action plan...for further meeting...next extra classes...my boss requested me to draft n prepare her a letter...sort of warning letter to be given to the parents who are not yet coming for signing the AKUJANJI form...this letter will also send to the unit HEM JPNT n PPD...huhuhuuh...actually that is not my scope of work..this work belongs to the form 5 coordinator..but she always pointing me doing this n that....! n I can't say NO...if not....nahas lah!!!
huhuhuh 'saya yang menurut perintah'....huhuhuhuh
Talk later...need to rest....n may be a short nap...